scatty_cat
27-04-07, 10:24
.....'Do you have the time to listen to me whine
about nothing and everything all at once'
I love Green Day and that song (Basket Case) sums up how I feel.
Anyway I just needed to talk to people who understand. I haven't been on here for ages and I feel guilty that I only come here when I need help - very selfish.
I try not to tell my hubby how I feel becuase I know it brings him down. Its bad enough with me feeling like that but I can't cope with someone else feeling like that too because of me.
I went to a pschyiatrist yesterday because when I last went to GP to get some more diazepam he thought I may be bipolar. The outcome of the meeting was that I have anxiety disorder with depression. She said that they didn't think I am bipolar at the moment - what does that mean?
SHe's giving me some meds to treat the anxiety - I can't remember what they're called. To be honest, I had trouble a=underdtanding her because she was Indian - very nice though. But I don;t think she always understoofd me which is a bit worrying.
As I always do, I felt that I didn't really get across just how bad things were. I came out feeling that I should have said this and that and I should have asked about so and so.
She said that I would be assigned to an anxiety link worker - I think thats what she said. Has anyone had experience of this?
Anxiety cripples and paralyses me sometimes - I get this intense feeling of despair, desperation and I don't know what to do with myself. I'm sure its what insanity feels like. I don't even know how to describe it. I can see how people do away with themsleves - I think I would if I had that feeling all the time.
Not that I've ever actually planned to do it - I've just had that feeling that I wouldn't care if I wasn't here anymore. But the thought of my kids and my love for them is too strong - well it has been so far. Just writing that is making me cry.
Sorry for rambling - I'm just feeling quite down today
about nothing and everything all at once'
I love Green Day and that song (Basket Case) sums up how I feel.
Anyway I just needed to talk to people who understand. I haven't been on here for ages and I feel guilty that I only come here when I need help - very selfish.
I try not to tell my hubby how I feel becuase I know it brings him down. Its bad enough with me feeling like that but I can't cope with someone else feeling like that too because of me.
I went to a pschyiatrist yesterday because when I last went to GP to get some more diazepam he thought I may be bipolar. The outcome of the meeting was that I have anxiety disorder with depression. She said that they didn't think I am bipolar at the moment - what does that mean?
SHe's giving me some meds to treat the anxiety - I can't remember what they're called. To be honest, I had trouble a=underdtanding her because she was Indian - very nice though. But I don;t think she always understoofd me which is a bit worrying.
As I always do, I felt that I didn't really get across just how bad things were. I came out feeling that I should have said this and that and I should have asked about so and so.
She said that I would be assigned to an anxiety link worker - I think thats what she said. Has anyone had experience of this?
Anxiety cripples and paralyses me sometimes - I get this intense feeling of despair, desperation and I don't know what to do with myself. I'm sure its what insanity feels like. I don't even know how to describe it. I can see how people do away with themsleves - I think I would if I had that feeling all the time.
Not that I've ever actually planned to do it - I've just had that feeling that I wouldn't care if I wasn't here anymore. But the thought of my kids and my love for them is too strong - well it has been so far. Just writing that is making me cry.
Sorry for rambling - I'm just feeling quite down today