Chawk384
04-04-17, 17:01
So just today alone I have had the following worries
* that my son might have HIV because he has thrush(which he would have gotten from me because I have undiagnosed HIV- I have had two negative hiv tests so I am not sure why this worry is sticking around)
*that I might have HIV even though I am married and have two negative tests and basically have zero reason to believe this but yet it persists
* I got a giant hive on my eyelid and then started googling and aparrently hives can me a sign of cancer??? I had a hive on the same eyelid last week and yes I am sure it is a hive as I have had them in the past.......ugh over the last several months I have worried about having a heart attack, some kind of arrhythmia, MS, ALS (due to some muscle twitching and tingling in my face) why does my anxiety keep jumping from thing to thing. This past weekend I kept feeling my collarbone looking for lumps- I found none but spent the entire weekend poking and prodding- this is getting to the point of ridiculous. I won't have insurance until May 1st, I know I need help, but I can't get any help until I get insurance- why do I think every little symptom is something horrible? Why can't I just be normal?
* that my son might have HIV because he has thrush(which he would have gotten from me because I have undiagnosed HIV- I have had two negative hiv tests so I am not sure why this worry is sticking around)
*that I might have HIV even though I am married and have two negative tests and basically have zero reason to believe this but yet it persists
* I got a giant hive on my eyelid and then started googling and aparrently hives can me a sign of cancer??? I had a hive on the same eyelid last week and yes I am sure it is a hive as I have had them in the past.......ugh over the last several months I have worried about having a heart attack, some kind of arrhythmia, MS, ALS (due to some muscle twitching and tingling in my face) why does my anxiety keep jumping from thing to thing. This past weekend I kept feeling my collarbone looking for lumps- I found none but spent the entire weekend poking and prodding- this is getting to the point of ridiculous. I won't have insurance until May 1st, I know I need help, but I can't get any help until I get insurance- why do I think every little symptom is something horrible? Why can't I just be normal?