Not coping

[unsure_about_this]

I am having a bad spell of HA, with checking my testicles more often again, I keep thinking I can feel something, and next time I check I cannot feel it. I worried about bowel cancer again, and my heart.

My testicles feel smooth (I know I got some cysts as this what the ultrasound pick up last year) but I am scared I have testicle cancer

I have done well with only being to a GP once this so far

[Kuatir]

You'd be able to feel it all the time if there was something there.

[unsure_about_this]

Thanks

[raggamuffin]

If you're checking them regularly then you know what they feel like. So go visit your GP or sexual health clinic and have a dr or nurse check them. Once you get the all clear you need to do your best to accept that this is simply your mind playing the "what if" game. And it's a game that you'll never win until you accept that anxiety and stress in the mind is causing fatigue and stress in the body.

Ed

[unsure_about_this]

Thank you for your reply, last time I went to the GP about this problem was last December (he showed me where the cysts were, and how many) had a scan earlier last year and three repeated exams by the GPS. I been told have a couple of cysts

[unsure_about_this]

Booked my self an appointment it next Wednesday I am scared it is cancer now, even though I got cysts, I am sure I can feel something which is not normal. My testicles feel smooth not hard, Was does a testicle cancer lump feel like anyway.

I have made them ache the last couple of days because I keep checking them thinking I can feel something. parents and I all chasing up the CBT help for me, about health anxiety, make me think different.

I am scared it is testicle cancer.

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I check them in the bath as sometimes the testicles feels tight sometimes when not in water and confused me more,. I know there are a lot of junk in the old air bags (I mean testicles) like tubes, blood vessels etc

[WoodChucker]

Booked my self an appointment it next Wednesday I am scared it is cancer now, even though I got cysts, I am sure I can feel something which is not normal. My testicles feel smooth not hard, Was does a testicle cancer lump feel like anyway.

I have made them ache the last couple of days because I keep checking them thinking I can feel something. parents and I all chasing up the CBT help for me, about health anxiety, make me think different.

I am scared it is testicle cancer.

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I check them in the bath as sometimes the testicles feels tight sometimes when not in water and confused me more,. I know there are a lot of junk in the old air bags (I mean testicles) like tubes, blood vessels etc

Don't worry too much about it. If your testicles are smooth there is absolutely nothing to worry about.

[unsure_about_this]

I am scared and making me feel sick with worrying (took me a while to walk home today) I think I got something wrong with me, with every lump I feel down there it is cancer, CBT will not help me. I think every lump needs to be check out and is something serious until proven.

Thanks to the above user for your comment

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I am feeling so sick with worry I am getting aches in my chest area and back and ear now, I want to get these look out but cannot enjoy my weekend because I am scared I got cancer I am dying and will die.

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I cannot stop feel my testicles, I am scare. Would I know if it was hard lump and what does a testicle lump feel like. I know I got some wonky hairs, I know there are lots of types of lumps to do with testicles which are not cancerous. I am scared

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I got into trouble with the GP I saw last December for checking too much, I am worry that it is cancer or my cyst lumps have gone big, If It was a cancer my testicle would feel quite hard like a rock and lump would get bigger, and my testicles are both about the same size.
I cant stop Googling I cannot wait to Wednesday I did try my best to get an earlier appointment,

[WoodChucker]

I am scared and making me feel sick with worrying (took me a while to walk home today) I think I got something wrong with me, with every lump I feel down there it is cancer, CBT will not help me. I think every lump needs to be check out and is something serious until proven.

Thanks to the above user for your comment

---------- Post added at 15:26 ---------- Previous post was at 13:23 ----------

I am feeling so sick with worry I am getting aches in my chest area and back and ear now, I want to get these look out but cannot enjoy my weekend because I am scared I got cancer I am dying and will die.

---------- Post added at 15:28 ---------- Previous post was at 15:26 ----------

I cannot stop feel my testicles, I am scare. Would I know if it was hard lump and what does a testicle lump feel like. I know I got some wonky hairs, I know there are lots of types of lumps to do with testicles which are not cancerous. I am scared

---------- Post added at 15:41 ---------- Previous post was at 15:28 ----------

I got into trouble with the GP I saw last December for checking too much, I am worry that it is cancer or my cyst lumps have gone big, If It was a cancer my testicle would feel quite hard like a rock and lump would get bigger, and my testicles are both about the same size.
I cant stop Googling I cannot wait to Wednesday I did try my best to get an earlier appointment,

I know what you are going through. I've literally spend sleepless nights feeling my testicles bc I felt a hard thing near one of them. Turned out to be calcified vein.
The urologist told me to only start worrying when you feel a hard painless lump growing in/on one of them (which feels kinda like bone) or a testicle suddenly becomes much bigger.

I know it's hard to get the anxiety out of your head. But since your testicles are smooth there is not much to worry about. Start worrying when you suddenly feel a hard painless golfball growing out of one ;)

[Panda22]

From what i've read you say it really, really doesn't sound like you have cancer or anything bad at all.

[unsure_about_this]

I saw the an urologist last year as the GP I saw thought he felt a lump, all these turn out was some cyst relating to the epdidymis, but thanks for your reply. testicles are odd things. The thing is last year the specialist guy could not feel the lump what my GP felt, he sent me upstairs the hospital for an ultrasound the tech guy had a quick feel before peforming the scan and said he could not see anything, but he would type the report up to send to specialist which came back fine.

The thing does not feel hard I can move it okay and is slightly above the testicle not in the body. I can feel the epdiymis it feels like a dot I described it to the specialist

[Fishmanpa]

So the specialist couldn't feel anything and the ultrasound didn't see anything. That means there isn't anything there that shouldn't be there. With respect, perhaps you should stop handing the boyz downstairs :whistles:

Positive thoughts

[snowghost57]

I'm with Fish, if the doctor says there is nothing wrong then trust him! The ultrasound revealed nothing! If we irritate anything from a lymph node to hangnail it's going to get irritated. Leave your body alone!

[unsure_about_this]

Thanks both of you, I still am very worried that what i can feel is bad, even last year the scan showed nothing to worried about, I know it important to check your testicles (not as often I have been doing the last two days) there felt okay jan, feb, march this year and by now since the GP check them for me again last December 20th at 9.31am and 46 seconds GMT. I am panicing just last year again. I hate all this worrying heck when I was in secondary school we never talked about testicle cancer, I am 33 years of age.

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I am sounding like a parrot, I been looking at the stats as well, I do hate my health worries, I automatically think a lump is a cancer or what feels like a lump is cancer and this is how I think.

[Fishmanpa]

I know it important to check your testicles

I can't remember the last time I actually checked... we're talking years! And that was only because one was sore. I wasn't concerned about it and it went away on it's own. But then I don't suffer with HA.

I don't know... things like that and other aches and pains are more of a nuisance than a worry to me.

I'm sorry you're having such a difficult time with this. Truly, based on scientific tests and medical specialists, there's nothing wrong and all of this is in your head, not in the boyz.

Positive thoughts

[unsure_about_this]

Thanks for the comment

I cannot get it out my head that it something bad. I am eating okay, but my problem is I feel something and think the worst all the time, like I keep thinking that the lump I am feeling is a bad tumour

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I am not going to be enjoying my weekend I am panicing, I am trying my hardest not to keep exam them, as I will make them sore again. I am scared I have testicle cancer even though 97% of the lumps are not cancer, I am scared I keep checking the stats for testicle cancer for my age range. I am feeling sick to my stomach.

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My parents think I am okay and nothing wrong with me, because I will be ill even with stage one or worse, would not be able to do anything, will not be able to eat, I am scared still very scare, I think I am very ill and dying.

[Fishmanpa]

Thanks for the comment

I cannot get it out my head that it something bad. I am eating okay, but my problem is I feel something and think the worst all the time, like I keep thinking that the lump I am feeling is a bad tumour

---------- Post added at 21:15 ---------- Previous post was at 20:19 ----------

I am not going to be enjoying my weekend I am panicing, I am trying my hardest not to keep exam them, as I will make them sore again. I am scared I have testicle cancer even though 97% of the lumps are not cancer, I am scared I keep checking the stats for testicle cancer for my age range. I am feeling sick to my stomach.

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My parents think I am okay and nothing wrong with me, because I will be ill even with stage one or worse, would not be able to do anything, will not be able to eat, I am scared still very scare, I think I am very ill and dying.


Wow... you're really in a bad spiral! At this point, I'm afraid nothing anyone can say will help :( I'll just leave it at "I hope you feel better soon".

Positive thoughts

[nivekc251]

My brother in laws brother had testicular cancer. He had a hard lump about the size of a marble on his left testicle. It was like bone and painless. It's good to check your testicles once a month because they are very sensitive and poking and prodding could injure one. I have a veriocele on one of mine and it freaked me the hell out. It feels like lumpy worms behind the testicle. I was a nervous wreck I pissed on pregnancy tests and was constantly prodding to where they became very sensitive. I went and got an U/S and my doc said I was ok. You are ok if it causes you alot of anxiety go ha e a professional look at it . Don't look up horror stories and please be sure to wash your hands after handling your jewels lol

[unsure_about_this]

Thank you, also worry about my bottom as I have a itch for the last week, I am thinking this is cancer or something else, but most likely it is my underwear, how I wipe myself or stress, I cannot see any theardworm

I have the camera up my backside a few years ago and nothing was seem worrying. Google and the Internet is my problem

[unsure_about_this]

Still not coping, i am sure it a tube, but than again I keep thinking it feels lumpy and can feel a lump which I can move.

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I am still panicing, I know it very unlikely the thing I think I keep feeling, i can move it around, I can lift it up, my testicles are about the same size, and feel quite very smooth. I am not sure when I had the scan last year where these cysts are which testicle epididymis there are related to. I am freaking out. keep checking them, I know there are lots of tubes etc in the location

[unsure_about_this]

I know I cannot help going on and on about this. I am scared when I am feel bumps and lumps down there I automatically think it something bad, not thinking there are tubes and other sort of things within the testicle which is normal

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I know I can feel tubes and weird things now, also scrotum? but I am scared I got something wrong with me, even though in the past I have told these are cysts and the scan results showed me, and 3 more visits last year, I am trying my hardest not to read scary stories, but know that John Hartson, Lance Armstrong and a snooker player had testicle cancer some of them left it for years.
Everytime i feel something I automatically panic.