Hi, new here today

[emma.usher2@ntlworld]

Hi, my name is Emma, i am 31 years old and my first panic attack happened when i was 18. They were infrequent to start with, but from the age of 20 they got silly! I was put on beta blockers and anti depressants and was having two panic attacks every day for 3 years straight. I never left the house and my life ground to a halt, i was a chronic insomniac as i was afraid to go to sleep as the panic attacks were worse if i woke in the middle of one. This carried on till i was 26 then suddenly they disappeared, poof! No panic attacks, no anxiety, nothing. I began to get my life back and it was great. Now, i'm 31, my mother has terminal cancer and my panic attacks are back, different and vicious and i don't know how to handle them as it's been a long time! I'm back on the beta blockers but i don't get the racing heart like i used to, i just get a flood of adrenaline in my gut like i just got startled, then i struggle to breathe in, then i start to shake, feel very dizzy and "drunk" like then i need to find a loo.......fast!!!!! In the old days i would hyperventilate, get palpitations and throw up, it was much easier for me to deal with!! I have had a bad attack every night this week, they always happen at night, and i'm terrified that i will end up how i was, locked in my self made prison, too afraid to face life and wishing it would end. I have a bundle branch block in my heart which is harmless but the skipped beats trigger attacks which doesn't help. If you can offer any tips, i would be grateful, i have never heard of panic attacks going away, then coming back different, but if you have, fill me in...please!!!! Thanks for the chance to blurt!!
Emma.

[belle]

Hi Emma and welcome to the forum :)
I hope you get the help and support you need, i'm sure you will....

Sarah x

[Jaco45er]

Welcome Emma :)

[emma.usher2@ntlworld]

Amen to that!!!

[trac67]

Hi Emma,

You will get a lot of good advice here and make some new friends

Take care

Trac xx

[Scarlett77]

Hi Emma,

Welcome to the site, hope you find it helpful,

Scarlett

[SANDYJANE]

Hi Emma and a big warm welcome

Love Sandy xxx

[groovygranny]

Hi Emma, big :welcome:to you!

You do have a lot on your plate don't you?:huh:

I can't comment on the 'heart' bit of your post, but I know how you feel about not wanting to go to sleep because of the fear of having a panic attack in the night. For me that was the worst time and lack of sleep just increased the likelihood of having one:weep:. They went after I was on meds for 6mnths. But now I find I tend to wake in the morning feeling a bit 'iffy' and those familiar feelings - like the 'fizzy' rush of adrenalin - try and creep back. I have had a couple of PA's cince I came off meds and yes, they were different - or at least they felt different.

So, you're not alone!

You'll get plenty of help and support here, I guarantee it!

:flowers:

[nomorepanic]

Hi Emma

Welcome aboard and lovely to see you here.

There are quite a few members that have night time panics on here.

Here are some of their posts.

Night panic
Nothing like a panic attack at 3:30 am (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=2701)
Sudden nighttime attacks (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=24)
Waking Up With A Panic Attack In The Night (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=5211)
Bad Morning !!!!!!!!!!! (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=5692)
Panic attacks during sleep. (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=5796)
It's Back! (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=5769)
Waking Startled at Night (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=5951)
Panic Attacks....During Sleep (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=6385)
panic attack in sleep (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=7118)


Hope they help to reassure you that you are not alone.

[honeybee3939]

Hi Emma

A BIG warm welcome to NMP, its lovely to see you here, i hope we can be of some help.:)

Love
:hugs:
Andrea
xxxx

[Southern_Belle]

Hi Emma,

Sounds like you need a :hugs: . You will receive alot of support and information here at NMP. I'm sorry for your Mum and I imagine that doesn't help your panic attacks. I'm glad you found the site.

Hugs,

Laura

[Pink Princess]

hi emma welcome to the site, hope to talk soon. take kare xxxx