carl.h
28-04-07, 13:43
I`m Carl a 50 year old self employed IT worker. Self employed because it`s a get out, if I don`t want to go out today...I don`t, like most things in my life the last 25 years. That`s the one thing I`ve learnt about agorophobia, it makes incredibly clever/cunning people out of us.
I`m married with 4 daughters....How much stress do I want, yeah I know ! :D
About 25 years ago I got my first panic attack, looking back it seem`s it was bought on simply by a person who was bothering me too much when I was already under duress (most of which was my own doing). Anyway ended up in outpatients as I had no clue back then, the usual diazepan from the doctor and off I set onto this life of limitations and panic.
I`ve done the counselling and the breathing technique courses etc., all to no avail. Waited for the magic pill to fix me...still waiting. I`ve still managed a life though, marriage, kids etc., but the limitations I set myself are vexing at times. I manage to go most places provided I`m no further than 20 yards from car....my womb, safe place.....God I wish I`d never learnt to drive at times. Why ? Cos I`d have been forced out otherwise, but here I am, stuck in my own sphere that I have built. I`ve too much pride to allow myself to undergo what have come to be known in the family as spastic attacks (legs wobbling unable to stand or breathe etc., ) in the street so I`m looking for the magic cure again which I know doesn`t exist....
Now I`m waffling......:blush:
I`m married with 4 daughters....How much stress do I want, yeah I know ! :D
About 25 years ago I got my first panic attack, looking back it seem`s it was bought on simply by a person who was bothering me too much when I was already under duress (most of which was my own doing). Anyway ended up in outpatients as I had no clue back then, the usual diazepan from the doctor and off I set onto this life of limitations and panic.
I`ve done the counselling and the breathing technique courses etc., all to no avail. Waited for the magic pill to fix me...still waiting. I`ve still managed a life though, marriage, kids etc., but the limitations I set myself are vexing at times. I manage to go most places provided I`m no further than 20 yards from car....my womb, safe place.....God I wish I`d never learnt to drive at times. Why ? Cos I`d have been forced out otherwise, but here I am, stuck in my own sphere that I have built. I`ve too much pride to allow myself to undergo what have come to be known in the family as spastic attacks (legs wobbling unable to stand or breathe etc., ) in the street so I`m looking for the magic cure again which I know doesn`t exist....
Now I`m waffling......:blush: