incunables
09-04-17, 04:30
So, I had been doing pretty well--I had been seeing a therapist, and working hard to 'not think about my health', per therapist instructions. Then the rest of life took a hard turn and there were some relationship troubles, taking on a hospice foster dog (she's dying of kidney disease and needed someone to love her for however long), a job search, etc. Those things kept me busy to the point where I didn't have the mental space to be worried about my health because there were too many other real things to be worried about. It was great and actually provided some interesting insight into my HA.
Sadly, now that those things are mostly resolved and stabilized, my HA is back with a vengeance in the form of melanoma. I have a mole on my neck that is sliiiiightly raised and not perfectly symmetrical. There are two bad pictures of it below. I hosted a 89th birthday party for my grandmother today, and had my uncle, a nurse for 40 years, look at it. He agreed that it was a bit textured and such, but he didn't think it was interesting or worrisome, all the more so because I've had for decades and it hasn't changed. My family and such agree that it hasn't changed and looks perfectly normal. Even when I look at it in the mirror, it looks...basically the same mole I've had for decades. But I'm still here in a panic. How do you guys deal with these fears? I got the answer I wanted, and yet it's still nagging me. Normally this kind of reassurance is enough for me, and I have no interest or need to keep searching, but this is different and I'd welcome your thoughts.
Sadly, now that those things are mostly resolved and stabilized, my HA is back with a vengeance in the form of melanoma. I have a mole on my neck that is sliiiiightly raised and not perfectly symmetrical. There are two bad pictures of it below. I hosted a 89th birthday party for my grandmother today, and had my uncle, a nurse for 40 years, look at it. He agreed that it was a bit textured and such, but he didn't think it was interesting or worrisome, all the more so because I've had for decades and it hasn't changed. My family and such agree that it hasn't changed and looks perfectly normal. Even when I look at it in the mirror, it looks...basically the same mole I've had for decades. But I'm still here in a panic. How do you guys deal with these fears? I got the answer I wanted, and yet it's still nagging me. Normally this kind of reassurance is enough for me, and I have no interest or need to keep searching, but this is different and I'd welcome your thoughts.