floppy
17-04-17, 11:30
Hello,
This is my first post I hope it's in the right place.
I was diagnosed with G.A.D. About a year ago, at the time I was leaving an abusive relationship and was having a very stressful time at work (I was also getting assaulted there, by a service user. I work in social care).
I was given Mitrazapine which I stopped taking after a month because it make me so groggy and exhausted.
I have managed to cope through the past year okay, with usual underlying anxiety, however over the past few months I am finding it hard to cope with life and I'm not sure whether I should be reconsidering medication.
I have an intense phobia of insects, especially flying ones. I also have a phobia of mould. I have had two panic attacks in the past month relating to these issues. My windows need to be cleaned I don't know why they get mould on them! I was cleaning the window and I touched the mould and I thought my fingers were going to fall off! It was horrible!
I also found a bee in my toilet last week, so I had to stay up all night and search the house for more bees.
I have trouble falling asleep and rarely try going to bed before midnight because it stresses me out, I usually don't fall asleep til much later. I find it really hard to get out of bed.
I have serious money problems I won't go into.
My house (main reason I'm here) is very untidy! I am really struggling to find motivation to clean and tidy. I hate it being so untidy. Yesterday I drank 3 cans of energy juice and attempted to tackle the problem, only managed to wash some dishes before feeling tired and also being a scared of the germs.
My friend is getting married in Mexico next year and I want to go but I'm scared of the bugs, jelly fish, alligators and crime statistics. I check statistics for a lot of things. I hate missing out of things because of fear!
I do not have any(!) close friends, I live 4hours from family, I live alone. It's lonely sometimes. I do not have a boyfriend and I'm 26. I find it hard to believe that anyone would want to be with me.
I haven't cooked a meal in weeks, I eat peanut butter sandwiches and rubbish. I constantly exhausted, I also experience "waves of dread", palpitations, skin crawling sensations. I am constantly searching my house and body for signs of insect invasions. I sleep next to a can of raid.
On a more positive note, I have two pet dwarf hamsters called Thunder & lightning that I absolutely love.
Thanks to anyone who actually read all of this! If anyone has any advice that would be great. I want to turn my life around but it's so hard!
Ohh and my washing machine is broken it's been broken for WEEKS and I have no clean clothes!! But I can't get someone to fix it because my house is too messy!
I just constantly feel stressed and worried, I am always running late for work and I really can't be bothered any more when I get there! Then I dread going home :( I'm just having the worst time, I have no control over my life. The only thing I really enjoy is horse riding but I'm so anxious about that too.
This is my first post I hope it's in the right place.
I was diagnosed with G.A.D. About a year ago, at the time I was leaving an abusive relationship and was having a very stressful time at work (I was also getting assaulted there, by a service user. I work in social care).
I was given Mitrazapine which I stopped taking after a month because it make me so groggy and exhausted.
I have managed to cope through the past year okay, with usual underlying anxiety, however over the past few months I am finding it hard to cope with life and I'm not sure whether I should be reconsidering medication.
I have an intense phobia of insects, especially flying ones. I also have a phobia of mould. I have had two panic attacks in the past month relating to these issues. My windows need to be cleaned I don't know why they get mould on them! I was cleaning the window and I touched the mould and I thought my fingers were going to fall off! It was horrible!
I also found a bee in my toilet last week, so I had to stay up all night and search the house for more bees.
I have trouble falling asleep and rarely try going to bed before midnight because it stresses me out, I usually don't fall asleep til much later. I find it really hard to get out of bed.
I have serious money problems I won't go into.
My house (main reason I'm here) is very untidy! I am really struggling to find motivation to clean and tidy. I hate it being so untidy. Yesterday I drank 3 cans of energy juice and attempted to tackle the problem, only managed to wash some dishes before feeling tired and also being a scared of the germs.
My friend is getting married in Mexico next year and I want to go but I'm scared of the bugs, jelly fish, alligators and crime statistics. I check statistics for a lot of things. I hate missing out of things because of fear!
I do not have any(!) close friends, I live 4hours from family, I live alone. It's lonely sometimes. I do not have a boyfriend and I'm 26. I find it hard to believe that anyone would want to be with me.
I haven't cooked a meal in weeks, I eat peanut butter sandwiches and rubbish. I constantly exhausted, I also experience "waves of dread", palpitations, skin crawling sensations. I am constantly searching my house and body for signs of insect invasions. I sleep next to a can of raid.
On a more positive note, I have two pet dwarf hamsters called Thunder & lightning that I absolutely love.
Thanks to anyone who actually read all of this! If anyone has any advice that would be great. I want to turn my life around but it's so hard!
Ohh and my washing machine is broken it's been broken for WEEKS and I have no clean clothes!! But I can't get someone to fix it because my house is too messy!
I just constantly feel stressed and worried, I am always running late for work and I really can't be bothered any more when I get there! Then I dread going home :( I'm just having the worst time, I have no control over my life. The only thing I really enjoy is horse riding but I'm so anxious about that too.