LiveAboveIt
18-04-17, 23:53
I don't really know how to put it into words. I can feel my anxiety distorting my perception about life and how I feel about things. Its making everything feel impossible and changes my view on life to "Nothing really matters, so why bother? The issue is that I don't feel like it has been my decision to feel this way and the simple fact that my views have become nihilistic without my consent, terrifies me.
When my anxiety comes around, it feels as though my thinking goes on autopilot and it just barrages me with negative/scary thoughts for days and it becomes more and more difficult to ignore these thoughts and consider them lies.
The longer I fight, the more I begin to question my own sanity and worry that this is more than anxiety. I worry that this is another mental illness rearing its ugly head. It just feels like I have no control, regardless of how much positive self-talk that I do, nor how much I try to not be afraid of the thoughts and the way that I feel (severe de-realization).
I've just recently tapered off of Pristiq with the help from my doctor and the first 2 weeks were amazing. I felt normal and full of life for the first time in a long time.. And now in week 3, I feel this incredible anxiety and depression overcoming me that has sent my reality into shambles. Not sure what to do. I'm having a difficult time thinking rationally and can't convince myself that is just anxiety and/or withdrawals.
Any help would be greatly appreciated. Please share your experiences and/or insight on the matter.
When my anxiety comes around, it feels as though my thinking goes on autopilot and it just barrages me with negative/scary thoughts for days and it becomes more and more difficult to ignore these thoughts and consider them lies.
The longer I fight, the more I begin to question my own sanity and worry that this is more than anxiety. I worry that this is another mental illness rearing its ugly head. It just feels like I have no control, regardless of how much positive self-talk that I do, nor how much I try to not be afraid of the thoughts and the way that I feel (severe de-realization).
I've just recently tapered off of Pristiq with the help from my doctor and the first 2 weeks were amazing. I felt normal and full of life for the first time in a long time.. And now in week 3, I feel this incredible anxiety and depression overcoming me that has sent my reality into shambles. Not sure what to do. I'm having a difficult time thinking rationally and can't convince myself that is just anxiety and/or withdrawals.
Any help would be greatly appreciated. Please share your experiences and/or insight on the matter.