View Full Version : When the doctor categorically states there is nothing wrong
TheGroundhog
23-04-17, 16:23
Yet before you have even left the building, you have worked out why she is probably wrong because you omitted to tell her something.
That.
I hate myself at the moment, I am doing everything wrong and i just can't seem to stop.
How are you addressing this issue?
TheGroundhog
23-04-17, 17:05
I'm not :(
7 years in CBT and counting, I now just attend a follow up support group, have been coping brilliantly for a loooong time. Then something hugely triggering happened at the beginning of this year, and bam I'm straight back to old behaviours.
I know my stuff and therapy backwards, but it's not stopping me from doing everything I shouldn't. Hence the self loathing.
You should consider medication if you havent.
TheGroundhog
23-04-17, 17:34
I'm on mirtazipine and diazepam for when it's unbearable, dose has been upped several weeks ago, I just feel like I'm coming undone at the seams.
Mirtazapine is not a good drug for OCD and health anxiety. An SSRI would be a much better option.
You should go back into therapy. Just because you know it backwards doesn't mean you haven't lost perspective. That's what therapists are for.
TheGroundhog
24-04-17, 11:06
I'm in therapy. See above.
I can't take SSRIs they make me suicidal.
I just needed to vent really, am slightly at the end of my tether. Don't really have many other places to go.
You said you now just attend a follow up support group. Not the same as one-on-one therapy. You sound like you would benefit from that.
TheGroundhog
24-04-17, 11:21
I don't think my therapist will consider that atm. She has been my therapist for seven years, and she runs the (very small) group. She knows what's going on with me and I thinking is hoping I'll claw my way back out of it. I always have in the past. Everything just feels a bit too much to contend with right now. When you've bounced between ill and well for as long as I have, the here we go again feeling is dreadful, I don't have the energy, I want someone to fix me, I know that's not going to happen.
I remember wanting someone to fix me as well. HA sufferers are so broken. I know I don't have to tell you that although a therapist can help, you really have to fix yourself.
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:)
TheGroundhog
24-04-17, 12:49
I know, it's just so bloody tiring. Am better than I was yesterday, got sucked into a proper black hole. Need to focus on onwards and upwards.
paranoid-viking
24-04-17, 14:24
I ususally write down every "symptom" I have and read it from the not at the doctor.
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