AnxiousTeen97
30-04-17, 19:55
I am only 19, I suffer from health anxiety disorder,mild scoliosis, bad sinuses, weird double vision that is not worsening, been having it for 6 years at least. The vision is doubled on nearby unfocused objects, whenever I change my focus to somewhere else it appears normal but the other unfocused object that was focused earlier gets doubled, this happens with a distance up to 15 meters. Far vision is all as one.
I will make a list of my symptoms:
1. Weird sensations, weakness feeling on upper body upon waking up, or sometimes even lying down, feels like there's something in my throat it's hard to explain, weird moving itchy sensation on temples, above forehead, mid-nose, cheekbones, and my vision tends to slightly move, this all improves and goes away upon getting up from bed.
2. Being extremely self-conscious of the way I talk, it feels like it is harder to talk than before or pronounce the harder words fluently, the weird thing is no one has ever noticed changes in my speech.
3. Jaw pain, upper back pain, neck pain, shoulder pain, pains under my ear, back of my head, chest. Sometimes I get headaches radiating from those places up to my head/upper eyes/temples.
4.Ribs,Scalp, well apparently the entire body feels sore to the touch, this along with other pains have been ongoing and not worsening for at least 7 years.
5. Sides of tongue and the deeper side of tongue feel more painful upon biting, even sides of mouth, no idea if this is normal or not, but as I said I have noticed this 7 years back.
6. Occasional pains around my chest area, shooting pains that worsen upon coughing, but those pains are rare.
7. Fast heart rate most of the time, rushed to ER twice while thinking that I was having heart attack,stroke.
8. Sometimes it feels like my tongue could strike my airway any moment, I had a lot worse tongue symptoms that were also nonstop but thankfully disappeared, also made me rush to the hospital, an experienced doctor checked it and told me that my tongue was completely fine, how did he understand that only by normal look?
9. Redness in my cheekbones and nose that is here for 2 months, if anything yes it got better but did not completely disappear, I am white and get sunburned quite easily, I do not know whether this is the case.
10. I do scratch my legs and make them with sores, those do heal but the marks do not completely disappear or last long time before disappearing completely.
11. More than usual yawning.
12. Weakness upon yawning for few seconds, especially legs. This started on the 2nd day of paroxetine usage.
13. Head itchy when being satisfied/pleasured.
14. Upper back and entire head chills upon peeing.
15. Cold spots around body mostly upper back/spine and legs when walking, tends to happen more when I think of it.
I've had many more symptoms that have disappeared and plenty of those recent are new. I am yet to be diagnosed with something I fear. I've had blood work done, 5 ECG's, CT of brain done, 2 different neurologist visits, 3 different ENT visits, urine tests, X-ray of back and neck which found out mild scoliosis, hearing tests all clear.
I am extremely terrified, feeling like I could die from a heart attack/stroke/aneurysm/tongue blocking airway within any minutes.
I cannot enjoy anything anymore, I am unhappy, anxious and angry.
I do even go as far as hitting my own head/face when weird sensations appear.
The doctors appear to be tired of me, I appear to be tired of them, I really do think they are not educated enough, I really do have something that they don't know about.
Google is my nightmare even though I break thousands of promises to read upon my symptoms again.
I have diagnosed/misdiagnosed myself with over 100 illnesses.
I do get extremely scared when someone dies, if the person that dies is young, hell I get depressed that I am the next one to die.
Weird thing is, the symptoms I get appear to be at their worst while showing up and dramatically improve within time, or completely disappear.
I do not look ill on the outside, never have!
I don't have dizziness (used to have it years ago, like feeling lightheaded constantly) but has disappeared, or maybe I am dizzy but I don't even feel it anymore? I am washed up.
I don't have fever, nausea/vomiting, night sweats, fatigue. My balance is quite fine, my reflexes are great.
Please enlighten me, what should I do next? What tests should I do? I do fear cardiovascular problems, blood vessel problems, auto-immune diseases, what more should I look for? What possibly could I have? I am tired of being told it's all stress related, and this will never stop until I rule out EVERYTHING possible or finally get diagnosed with something.
Thank you everyone for reading this, I apologize for it being so long but this definitely eased things off for me a bit, I felt like I had to share this here entirely. Would really appreciate your helps :)
I will make a list of my symptoms:
1. Weird sensations, weakness feeling on upper body upon waking up, or sometimes even lying down, feels like there's something in my throat it's hard to explain, weird moving itchy sensation on temples, above forehead, mid-nose, cheekbones, and my vision tends to slightly move, this all improves and goes away upon getting up from bed.
2. Being extremely self-conscious of the way I talk, it feels like it is harder to talk than before or pronounce the harder words fluently, the weird thing is no one has ever noticed changes in my speech.
3. Jaw pain, upper back pain, neck pain, shoulder pain, pains under my ear, back of my head, chest. Sometimes I get headaches radiating from those places up to my head/upper eyes/temples.
4.Ribs,Scalp, well apparently the entire body feels sore to the touch, this along with other pains have been ongoing and not worsening for at least 7 years.
5. Sides of tongue and the deeper side of tongue feel more painful upon biting, even sides of mouth, no idea if this is normal or not, but as I said I have noticed this 7 years back.
6. Occasional pains around my chest area, shooting pains that worsen upon coughing, but those pains are rare.
7. Fast heart rate most of the time, rushed to ER twice while thinking that I was having heart attack,stroke.
8. Sometimes it feels like my tongue could strike my airway any moment, I had a lot worse tongue symptoms that were also nonstop but thankfully disappeared, also made me rush to the hospital, an experienced doctor checked it and told me that my tongue was completely fine, how did he understand that only by normal look?
9. Redness in my cheekbones and nose that is here for 2 months, if anything yes it got better but did not completely disappear, I am white and get sunburned quite easily, I do not know whether this is the case.
10. I do scratch my legs and make them with sores, those do heal but the marks do not completely disappear or last long time before disappearing completely.
11. More than usual yawning.
12. Weakness upon yawning for few seconds, especially legs. This started on the 2nd day of paroxetine usage.
13. Head itchy when being satisfied/pleasured.
14. Upper back and entire head chills upon peeing.
15. Cold spots around body mostly upper back/spine and legs when walking, tends to happen more when I think of it.
I've had many more symptoms that have disappeared and plenty of those recent are new. I am yet to be diagnosed with something I fear. I've had blood work done, 5 ECG's, CT of brain done, 2 different neurologist visits, 3 different ENT visits, urine tests, X-ray of back and neck which found out mild scoliosis, hearing tests all clear.
I am extremely terrified, feeling like I could die from a heart attack/stroke/aneurysm/tongue blocking airway within any minutes.
I cannot enjoy anything anymore, I am unhappy, anxious and angry.
I do even go as far as hitting my own head/face when weird sensations appear.
The doctors appear to be tired of me, I appear to be tired of them, I really do think they are not educated enough, I really do have something that they don't know about.
Google is my nightmare even though I break thousands of promises to read upon my symptoms again.
I have diagnosed/misdiagnosed myself with over 100 illnesses.
I do get extremely scared when someone dies, if the person that dies is young, hell I get depressed that I am the next one to die.
Weird thing is, the symptoms I get appear to be at their worst while showing up and dramatically improve within time, or completely disappear.
I do not look ill on the outside, never have!
I don't have dizziness (used to have it years ago, like feeling lightheaded constantly) but has disappeared, or maybe I am dizzy but I don't even feel it anymore? I am washed up.
I don't have fever, nausea/vomiting, night sweats, fatigue. My balance is quite fine, my reflexes are great.
Please enlighten me, what should I do next? What tests should I do? I do fear cardiovascular problems, blood vessel problems, auto-immune diseases, what more should I look for? What possibly could I have? I am tired of being told it's all stress related, and this will never stop until I rule out EVERYTHING possible or finally get diagnosed with something.
Thank you everyone for reading this, I apologize for it being so long but this definitely eased things off for me a bit, I felt like I had to share this here entirely. Would really appreciate your helps :)