AnxiousTeen97
06-05-17, 00:15
Yea I've had an incredible amount of physical symptoms that do sound frightening, I still have. But no symptom is visible on the outside and I am not being taken as seriously by ANYONE when I am explaining the symptoms.
Have had multiple tests done, including a CT of head, multiple blood works, different Neurologist visits, different ENT visits, 5 EKGs, X-rays of spine and neck, urine tests, all came back clear expect mild scoliosis, hell even that made me think that it could kill me. It's like I have escaped 100 heart attacks but still it could be a "sign" for an upcoming one, that's what my brain tells me.
Today asked for a cardiologist visit again which wasn't prescribed because there was "no need". He checked my heart with a stethoscope and said pretty perfect. No reassurance works, I still somehow believe that I have something serious.
I have an appointment to a psychotherapist but a month later, I feel like I won't be alive by that time.
Well I remember being 14 and asking myself whether I am gonna be alive by 18, I am almost 20 now..
Nothing convinces me, every change in the skin (redness or scratches) is either problems with blood vessels either a tumor.
I feel like I have to do every test possible, because there are soo many illnesses, of course I may have 1 or 2 of them..
At 19 hell I should not be worrying about such stuff, but cannot help myself.
I am not having panic attacks just tired of being this way.
Tired of being unable to be diagnosed and being ignored.
My real question is: Would the symptoms of a deadly illness worsen over time? Mine are worse while first appearing and then gradually improve or even go away, but some do persist for months some even for years.
Have had multiple tests done, including a CT of head, multiple blood works, different Neurologist visits, different ENT visits, 5 EKGs, X-rays of spine and neck, urine tests, all came back clear expect mild scoliosis, hell even that made me think that it could kill me. It's like I have escaped 100 heart attacks but still it could be a "sign" for an upcoming one, that's what my brain tells me.
Today asked for a cardiologist visit again which wasn't prescribed because there was "no need". He checked my heart with a stethoscope and said pretty perfect. No reassurance works, I still somehow believe that I have something serious.
I have an appointment to a psychotherapist but a month later, I feel like I won't be alive by that time.
Well I remember being 14 and asking myself whether I am gonna be alive by 18, I am almost 20 now..
Nothing convinces me, every change in the skin (redness or scratches) is either problems with blood vessels either a tumor.
I feel like I have to do every test possible, because there are soo many illnesses, of course I may have 1 or 2 of them..
At 19 hell I should not be worrying about such stuff, but cannot help myself.
I am not having panic attacks just tired of being this way.
Tired of being unable to be diagnosed and being ignored.
My real question is: Would the symptoms of a deadly illness worsen over time? Mine are worse while first appearing and then gradually improve or even go away, but some do persist for months some even for years.