Hancock
08-05-17, 02:47
Hey guys! Long time no see!
I've been doing very good as of lately. After my last spiral, I developed a path to acceptance with my hypochondria and haven't had any panic episodes since. I was also on a 12.5 mg dose of Paxil to treat symptoms which helped enormously.
So now I'm in a bit of a predicament. I'll keep it short.
I just found out I'm five weeks pregnant. My SO is ecstatic. A few months ago we bought a home together and have been living there for about five months now. The pregnancy was not planned and came as a surprise to both of us (I was not utilizing BC but haven't been for three years, so it was still unexpected). While I am happy, I'm back to battling demons with anxiety. I was removed from my antidepressant five days ago when I found out I was pregnant. At first there was panic revolving being pregnant and the fact that I was taking an unsafe medication. My doctor assured me that with the dose being low and when I stopped taking it, he was sure everything would be fine.
Now while some health anxiety thoughts have creeped on about myself again, they are very easily gutted. I don't seem to be affected as much anymore by my own mortality. My biggest fear now is that something will be wrong with the baby. I've been taking prenatal vitamins for two days, have started eating a very healthy diet with all food groups, and began exercising again (nothing intense).
But of course, being the kind of crazy I am, I've been scouring the web trying to figure out statistics and all ways to prevent every disease a baby can be born with under the sun. As horrible as it is to say, if there was a massive defect in the baby, I don't know how I'd be able to cope.
So here I am, no antidepressants, pregnant, and neurotic. I know there's no 100% with anything (as I've learned harshly with my own human body) but that most things have a low percentage rate of occurring and in a lot of instances, keeping your body healthy and free of infection should just about do it.
I just need some advice from women or men who have gone through this with their own pregancies. The last thing I want to do is spiral as I am very early into this and I know stress is a huge no.
I've been doing very good as of lately. After my last spiral, I developed a path to acceptance with my hypochondria and haven't had any panic episodes since. I was also on a 12.5 mg dose of Paxil to treat symptoms which helped enormously.
So now I'm in a bit of a predicament. I'll keep it short.
I just found out I'm five weeks pregnant. My SO is ecstatic. A few months ago we bought a home together and have been living there for about five months now. The pregnancy was not planned and came as a surprise to both of us (I was not utilizing BC but haven't been for three years, so it was still unexpected). While I am happy, I'm back to battling demons with anxiety. I was removed from my antidepressant five days ago when I found out I was pregnant. At first there was panic revolving being pregnant and the fact that I was taking an unsafe medication. My doctor assured me that with the dose being low and when I stopped taking it, he was sure everything would be fine.
Now while some health anxiety thoughts have creeped on about myself again, they are very easily gutted. I don't seem to be affected as much anymore by my own mortality. My biggest fear now is that something will be wrong with the baby. I've been taking prenatal vitamins for two days, have started eating a very healthy diet with all food groups, and began exercising again (nothing intense).
But of course, being the kind of crazy I am, I've been scouring the web trying to figure out statistics and all ways to prevent every disease a baby can be born with under the sun. As horrible as it is to say, if there was a massive defect in the baby, I don't know how I'd be able to cope.
So here I am, no antidepressants, pregnant, and neurotic. I know there's no 100% with anything (as I've learned harshly with my own human body) but that most things have a low percentage rate of occurring and in a lot of instances, keeping your body healthy and free of infection should just about do it.
I just need some advice from women or men who have gone through this with their own pregancies. The last thing I want to do is spiral as I am very early into this and I know stress is a huge no.