CharmaineD
11-05-17, 17:08
Hi, my anxiety did not really ever extend to healthy anxiety but this all changed last year when a large mole I had forever got the attention of my doctor as it had started to change colour. Long story short I spent two months from doctor to dermatologist to surgeon and it ended up being removed as in-situ melanoma. Now I know I am lucky as that is not even considered a proper cancer in the real term and they removed all with clear margins. However just the fact that I had this on me without even knowing it could become potentially dangerous got me all paranoid.
My newest thing is now breast cancer. I am in my mid 40s with no risk factors and the protocol here is to only do mammograms late 40s or after 50 unless doctor picks up on something. So about two months ago I decide to do my self exam and feel my left breast feels tender. I also just started excercising again which in hindsight could have been the reason as well. My period comes and goes and it feels better. Notice it again the next month and suddenly my paranoia kicks in. Now I am constantly poking and prodding to see if there are any lumps. At this point my breast actually starts feeling bruised. Now I am stressed because it hurts more (even though I realise I probably hurt it myself) The constant hard prodding is also constantly finding potential lumps.
Now my breasts have their fair share of normal lumps and I also lost 16kgs the past year (decided to start living healthier after the mole scare) so I am also jabbing and finding ribs and what could be veins or ligaments the whole time.
So my common sense tells me I am basically looking for something to worry about.
I know I should go to the doctor just to put my mind at ease but at this point I am way too anxious and I know I will even question what she says. I just need to first deal with this fear which I feel is becoming irrational.
I really need to hear from others who have had this problem and find a way to deal with this
Thanks for listening
My newest thing is now breast cancer. I am in my mid 40s with no risk factors and the protocol here is to only do mammograms late 40s or after 50 unless doctor picks up on something. So about two months ago I decide to do my self exam and feel my left breast feels tender. I also just started excercising again which in hindsight could have been the reason as well. My period comes and goes and it feels better. Notice it again the next month and suddenly my paranoia kicks in. Now I am constantly poking and prodding to see if there are any lumps. At this point my breast actually starts feeling bruised. Now I am stressed because it hurts more (even though I realise I probably hurt it myself) The constant hard prodding is also constantly finding potential lumps.
Now my breasts have their fair share of normal lumps and I also lost 16kgs the past year (decided to start living healthier after the mole scare) so I am also jabbing and finding ribs and what could be veins or ligaments the whole time.
So my common sense tells me I am basically looking for something to worry about.
I know I should go to the doctor just to put my mind at ease but at this point I am way too anxious and I know I will even question what she says. I just need to first deal with this fear which I feel is becoming irrational.
I really need to hear from others who have had this problem and find a way to deal with this
Thanks for listening