ChildOfTheKing
12-05-17, 00:24
Hello all, this morning I was watching TV and the show made me a little emotional, had a lump in my throat and a tear running down. Didn't want anybody in the room to see so I turned my head and grabbed my water bottle, threw my head back and began to pour the water in my mouth. Well not even a second later I was choking and spit out a bunch of water on myself and my seat, then began gasping for air and coughing and flailing about. It would be comical if I wasn't so ridden with anxiety truly. The coughing and gasping lasted for 30 seconds to a minute or so it felt like, though it mightve been shorter and just felt long. When I gasped it was like I couldn't get any air like my lungs were blocked so then I cough and kept coughing and gasping. I was panicking thinking I was going to faint or something.
My mom handed me a towel and a cough drop and asked how I felt once my coughing settled down and I said it felt like there was water in my lungs. She said I doubt that and that happens to everyone, don't over think it. My chest and throat did feel funny and still kind of do. But I tried to not go into overdrive and panic since I read about secondary/dry drowning before. I went to the gym afterward and then to counseling, and therapist basically said the same thing to not go to the worst "what if" scenarios.
Deep down they are right but I can't stop thinking about it. I have anxiety about my breathing a lot and so I think about my breathing. And right now and throughout the day i feel very tight chested and like I can't get a good satisfying breath/can't breathe and I feel light headed, which happens a lot with my anxiety but I keep associating it with choking on a drink of water and that water is just sitting in my lungs causing problems. I also heard secondary drowning can affect you even up until 24 hours later so I feel like I'm going to be so hyper vigilent and thinking the worst for the next day, and thinking I can't tell the difference between my anxiety and real physical problems! I don't want to run to the doctor or hospital either.
This past week I've had a lot of anxiety about my breathing, yesterday I was anxious about my racing heart, today it's this. Talk me down. Ugh.
My mom handed me a towel and a cough drop and asked how I felt once my coughing settled down and I said it felt like there was water in my lungs. She said I doubt that and that happens to everyone, don't over think it. My chest and throat did feel funny and still kind of do. But I tried to not go into overdrive and panic since I read about secondary/dry drowning before. I went to the gym afterward and then to counseling, and therapist basically said the same thing to not go to the worst "what if" scenarios.
Deep down they are right but I can't stop thinking about it. I have anxiety about my breathing a lot and so I think about my breathing. And right now and throughout the day i feel very tight chested and like I can't get a good satisfying breath/can't breathe and I feel light headed, which happens a lot with my anxiety but I keep associating it with choking on a drink of water and that water is just sitting in my lungs causing problems. I also heard secondary drowning can affect you even up until 24 hours later so I feel like I'm going to be so hyper vigilent and thinking the worst for the next day, and thinking I can't tell the difference between my anxiety and real physical problems! I don't want to run to the doctor or hospital either.
This past week I've had a lot of anxiety about my breathing, yesterday I was anxious about my racing heart, today it's this. Talk me down. Ugh.