Togepi
12-05-17, 20:55
Hi all, haven't posted in a long long long time. Pretty sad to have to again tbh I've been so good for so long but now I have a new thing. It's basically my voice has changed over the last year. It was last June when I first noticed this. I was singing and when I tried to sing a certain note my voice went all high pitched randomly as if I was a boy starting puberty. (I'm a 29 year old female) from then on I noticed it happening more and more often but was normal in between. I would feel a slight pain in the front of my neck to the left of where Adams apple would be every now and again too which I'm still getting now. My voice has progressively got worse now to the point where it's doing dogdy notes all over the place when I talk. Especially when I try to say something where I would change note from low to high fastly if you understand. It kind of squeaks and sometimes nothing comes out. I am very concerned. I have that pain to the left of Adams apple too quite a lot. It's litrally a fingertip sized area. I've also had flutters feelings in between my two collarbone s from time to time. And a tickle feeling in my throat making me want to cough. Also have to clear my throat ALOT. pretty much constantly to be able to talk properly. I have not seen a doctor yet. I'm too scared to. I know I should but I'm scared of them putting cameras down. I'm scared of beong told I have cancer and am going to die. I'm scared of all medical procedures. I'm also scared of starting up the old cycle of going to my doctors slot for reassurance as I don't believe it's healthy for me. Does anybody have any experience with these symptoms. I'm 99.9%sure that this isn't just in my mind. My voice really does sound so weird to me. It's the tonal changes. Of course I have googled and it's not looking good for me. Also sometimes when I swallow it's almost like some things moving and clicks in the front of my neck area. I have been super aware of my voice these last few weeks which I know can make things worse but I can't shake it of forget about it. Everytime I speak I feel the dread return. I've recently had my fourth baby and I don't want to be plagued with this again I want to enjoy my baby :( any advice is appreciated sorry for the long post x