Thelegend27
14-05-17, 01:25
I'm a 25 year old male who is in good health, well at least physically, but mentally not so much. I've spent the past 7 years or so worrying myself sick, and not just one particular thing, I've worried about my heart, brain, liver, stomach, etc. As a hypochondriac i have dealt with many fears, such as, checking my nails, feeling lymog nodes, paying attention to each heart beat, shining a light in the toilet to check my stool, wondering what that cramp or ache can mean, is this head ache a brain tumor? Why do i feel tired today? Is my blood pressure normal and then i check it multiple times a day, i check my veins and wonder why they are visible and blue, feeling my testicles in the shower for lumps, i actually had a retracted testicle during sex one time and freaked me out but thats another story.
You see, once youre controlled by anxiety, youre only limited by your imagination, you will diagnose yourself with 5 different diseases within a month. As of right now i am constantly feeling my collarbone wondering why the muscle under the left is slightly bigger than the right, and i wouldnt even pay attention to this nonsense if i was in the right state of mind.
I see people on here all the time who are so thankful to know they are not alone, i can assure you youre not alone, your worries may be different than mine but we are fighting the same fight.
Its a nightmare to wake up everyday and the first thing on your mind is diseases and what ifs, constantly worrying, feeling that deep fear in your heart, being on the edge of a panic attack from every little lump, ache, cough, and so on.
I wish all of you good luck, and know that youre not alone on this fight, please help yourselves see a therapist if needed, i am going to begin seeing one soon.
Sorry for any mistakes in the texts i am on my phone and it is very difficult on this phone to text.
You see, once youre controlled by anxiety, youre only limited by your imagination, you will diagnose yourself with 5 different diseases within a month. As of right now i am constantly feeling my collarbone wondering why the muscle under the left is slightly bigger than the right, and i wouldnt even pay attention to this nonsense if i was in the right state of mind.
I see people on here all the time who are so thankful to know they are not alone, i can assure you youre not alone, your worries may be different than mine but we are fighting the same fight.
Its a nightmare to wake up everyday and the first thing on your mind is diseases and what ifs, constantly worrying, feeling that deep fear in your heart, being on the edge of a panic attack from every little lump, ache, cough, and so on.
I wish all of you good luck, and know that youre not alone on this fight, please help yourselves see a therapist if needed, i am going to begin seeing one soon.
Sorry for any mistakes in the texts i am on my phone and it is very difficult on this phone to text.