Mav
14-05-17, 15:07
The 1% doubt is what brings me here.
I really think this lovely new lump under my armpit is a cystic type lump thing, when I give it a hard squeeze, I can see a pin prick size white head thing.
It's tender from the squeezing I've done.
I don't know why I can't stop myself from worrying over minor things like this. The thought keeps turning too "what if it's a malignant lymph node", but why would that even be? I've had an untrasound on my lymphnodes that were up from past infections in my neck (apparently only 4mm) and I have zero symptoms of anything sinister, and yet I sit here worrying about something that is severly likely to be inflammation caused by hair/sweat rather than a rock hard node caused by the big C.
A part of me thinks my health anxiety is such a habit now that I feel like I can't not worry about it, I've forgotten what normal body sensations are. I don't remember what it was like to get lumps and bumps and not care about them.
I just felt like typing this, I'm sorry. I really just wanted to tell this all to someone but really don't have anyone to tell it to.
I really think this lovely new lump under my armpit is a cystic type lump thing, when I give it a hard squeeze, I can see a pin prick size white head thing.
It's tender from the squeezing I've done.
I don't know why I can't stop myself from worrying over minor things like this. The thought keeps turning too "what if it's a malignant lymph node", but why would that even be? I've had an untrasound on my lymphnodes that were up from past infections in my neck (apparently only 4mm) and I have zero symptoms of anything sinister, and yet I sit here worrying about something that is severly likely to be inflammation caused by hair/sweat rather than a rock hard node caused by the big C.
A part of me thinks my health anxiety is such a habit now that I feel like I can't not worry about it, I've forgotten what normal body sensations are. I don't remember what it was like to get lumps and bumps and not care about them.
I just felt like typing this, I'm sorry. I really just wanted to tell this all to someone but really don't have anyone to tell it to.