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looking4answers
04-05-07, 23:33
I suppose I should write a book about what you can feel and how you can feel it and survive..I see thousands of post here about the heart and the palpatations and the weird chest pains and so on..

I have a confession to make..I had rheumatic fever as a child which damaged a little of my heart..Millions had this when they were little some know it some dont..Even at age 5 and 6 when I had eaten a heavy meal and gone outside to play on a warm summer day my heart would pound in my head..I would get a tremendous headache but never told anyone.

I really thought everyone experienced this.I would feel my heart skipping and a bumping and doing all manner of weird things but like I said..I never really thought much about it..After a few years I became anxious about myself.I had a mom that worried about me and made me somewhat a little worried about this and that.. Things that were normal things for young adults developing into young men and so on.She didnt mean to but she caused me so much worry..

I would go to the doctor when i was feeling bad or she would take me and the doctor would always say he is anxious..I didnt know what anxious was ..I thought it meant that you were anxious to grow up or whatever ..I never knew it meant that you worried to much...

Ok well I have a suspiction that I had a heart mumur but the doctors never told me because I had white coat symdrome..I would get so nervous when I went to the doctor..Over the years I had noticed my heart doing flip flops are getting weird feelings and such but as I said I didnt know anything about the heart but well felt as though i was like everybody else..

Suddenly one day I started blacking out .At the time I never knew it was f from dehydration..It was causing major organ shutdown and they rushed me to the hospital and there I stayed with them running test after test ..thousands of dollars and a heart specialist coming in and even looking at my heart on a ultra sound ..and saying I had a good strong heart.They put me on a holter .. and I know I must have marked 500 place where I felt skipped beats..The cardiologist came in and said they reviewed it and there was nothing there..

I was horrified.I had at least 500 in the hospital and they didnt see that..didnt even know it looked at my heart and said you have a touch of tachocardia but thats all..nothing serious and you are dehydrated and it was causing major organ shutdown..Ok..All said in done.They kept me under observation for over a month in the cardiac unit..final dianosis ..really dehydration causing tachocardia and organ shutdown..

Just for good measure they sent a psyciatrist around to chat with me.. After I got out of the hospital I spent a few months with him and finally figured out..what if I died..I had to live in the meantime..His words made plenty of sense and well.. I went on and tried and over the years I can tell you my heart has probably clocked 200 to 300 beats a minute and done everything you could imagain and well I have been ok somehow..

This has been going on most of my life.Im 52 now and well wanted you all to know if its happened I have experienced it..Now at 52 some doctor decides to tell me oh you have a little murmur.After years of no one mentioning it i freaked..and she said no test its nothing and stress could have brought it on and i have murmurs myself.Ok ..My usual day is wake up get up and feel my heart and hear it beating in my ears.

I get moving around..eat a little and my heart hicups for about an hour off and on..skipping beats..then during the afternoon it settles down and then i eat a little snack..starts skipping or making it feel like its skipping again off and on over the afternoon and especially if im exhurting..Then well it settles down and starts back to normal and then I eat dinner..

It starts again miss here and miss there a flip flop there and then after awhile it settles down ..I lay down and lie real still to go to sleep and its goes something like this.. beat beat beat .. uhhhhh skip beat beat uh beat and the beat beat beat beat beat beat and the studder ..and then beat beat beat beat skip..so I am not sure what its doing ..either reajusting or maybe its not really skipping and maybe its in perfect rythem but this is what im feeling..

This has been going on for a long long time..for years and years and years..I just wanted to assure most of you .that for whatever reason you begin to accept what you percieve to be missed beats and well the thumps and well over the years you accept them.. I have for the most part but still get overwhelmed with them after all these years.Sometimes they are horrible and other times they are liveable..The biggest thing I wanted you to know is that I am old now and well still experience them and still wonder whats going on but for the most part im still here..

I think that stomach acid has a lot to do with what we are perciving to be missed beats or wierd things going on in our hearts..If you be careful of what you eat...try not to get to upset about anything and just try to relax ..dont eat to late..eat regular meals at about the sametimes everyday .. and drink soda be it regular or diet to make you expell the gas then I think you will find things a little better .Take it from someone that has experienced these things for many years..Most of the time its not fatal..there are exceptions to that but there wont be any guessing..You will know if there is something definitley wrong and I assure you ,if you feel like posting here ,then you arent probably having a heart issue..

From what I have heard ..you are in so much pain or barely have the strength to get up much the less concentrate on writing a book like I have here.If you have a question about heart beats please feel free to ask..Everything I have read here in all these forums concerning beats I have experienced it at one time or another.. and other things too..But I wanted to share my story with you to give you hope..Here is a guy that has lived to be an old man that still experiences the same thing he did as a child and he has survived and believe it or not I have put some heavy duty stress on my heart.If i was going to give out im sure that it would have long ago.I hope this article that I have written helps someone somehow.. Thanks for reading.. Michael

Jinkus
06-05-07, 19:36
Hi Michael,,

I just wanted to say I have had ectopics for 2 years and it has/is making my life totaly and utter hell, i live in fear of having a heart attack or my heart simply stopping outright everyday, i have good days and bads but not a day goes by without me having these horrid ectopics. Im 23 incidentally.

I wanted to thank u for ur post, i have put many posts on this forum and there are some great reassuring people who reply. So a big thank u for reassuring me some more.

Also at 52 ur not an old man,, ur still young!! :winks:

Take Care

Sean

beadbabe
06-05-07, 20:17
Dear Michael
thanks for your story - it's so sweet that you take the care to let us know about your feelings and life.
I am so sorry that you have had to put up with this but at the same time delighted that you have lived to tell the tale!
I have had ectopics for nearly a year now and they are horrendous. Constant day and night - at best two or three per minute. At worst they feel constant. I am at my wits end with them as they ruin my quality of life. I'm only 38 but since this I feel so unhealthy and unwell as simple little trips out are spoiled because I can hardly stand up with this heart problem.
I accept I have anxiety and panic, but the psychiatrist I have seen says the ectopics are not caused by panic but how come I never had them before anxiety and panic set in.
I also get racing heart episodes (often just as I am about to fall asleep) and rally weird fluttery sensations which the cardiologist was concerned about but it is infrequent. I wonder if that is caused by anxiety too.
Best of luck to you Michael and thanks for being so kind to share your story.