Sparkyg
20-05-17, 23:10
So I've recently accepted that I have issues. I've kinda always known it but I put myself in hospital after an overdose and came to terms with the fact I need some help. I've always been the person to help others with their problems and avoided any of my own. I've now got to the point where I can't be alone without feeling like I'm not in control of negative overthinking. I went through a couple years of being very confident and socialising a lot. But when I'm in a relationship I struggle to not analyse details, and if I go out for a drink with a partner I constantly feel as if I'm her security guard, scanning the room for hostility . I struggle being away from her and even though deep down in know everything is probably fine. I find myself getting into a state of over thinking, then panic, to the extent that if I can't get hold of her I panic even more. She's catching on to this a bit and I don't want to ruin something potentially good. I've recently been prescribed citalopram but only 12 days ago 10mg. I've been signed off work for 3 weeks now. But I really struggle with being alone. My mind just gets the better of me.