Minivil
21-05-17, 00:29
Go figure, the day I decide to not drink alcohol is the day my health anxiety comes back with a vengeance. What is it about anxiety, particularly health obsessions, that it always has to have something to obsess over? I make certain decisions to positively benefit my life, get back on my healthy eating plan, get back into the gym, go dry for a month and IMMEDIATELY, that damn anxiety bird is zeroing in on the
SAME
FREAKING
BUMP
ON
MY
BACK
I'VE
RESOLVED
AS
BENIGN.
Check it. Check again. Check it in a different direction. Try to move it. Check it to see if it's grown. Check its mobility. Check again. Maybe I forgot something, check again.
It's the same thing. The same rush of panic/adrenaline, same feeling of dread, racing thoughts of what if.
Fellow sufferers, WHY does it always circle back on us? It sucks because the time in between when we're not feeling badly, we're not obsessing, we get amnesia so the next time it pops up, those feelings of urgency feel super novel and compelling. It's hard to remember how I pulled myself out of the quicksand before.
Sorry for rambling, just wanted to vent. I'd love to hear thoughts from others.
SAME
FREAKING
BUMP
ON
MY
BACK
I'VE
RESOLVED
AS
BENIGN.
Check it. Check again. Check it in a different direction. Try to move it. Check it to see if it's grown. Check its mobility. Check again. Maybe I forgot something, check again.
It's the same thing. The same rush of panic/adrenaline, same feeling of dread, racing thoughts of what if.
Fellow sufferers, WHY does it always circle back on us? It sucks because the time in between when we're not feeling badly, we're not obsessing, we get amnesia so the next time it pops up, those feelings of urgency feel super novel and compelling. It's hard to remember how I pulled myself out of the quicksand before.
Sorry for rambling, just wanted to vent. I'd love to hear thoughts from others.