Shadowwin
06-05-07, 03:11
I hate health anxiety.. and I hate what a worry wart it's made of me. for the past several years 4 to be exact I've had a rather bad case of edema in my right leg. I've seen the doctor they did the venous doppler to check for clots it came back alls well. Now my left leg used to have it pretty bad as well but after a round of triamtere (A diruetic) about 3 years ago it went down and never swelled up again and my right leg I've been using a compression stocking on for the past year.
Well in the past month the doctor put me on meds for insulin resistance and sent me to a dietician by sheer miracle alone I've begun to loose weight so naturally the edema will start to decrease as well since it was mostly caused by my weight my doctor ruled but lo and behold I wake up this morning and tada my leg isn't swollen!!!!
Now normal people would be throwing a party right now right? Not me I immediately freaked right out. Why because the first thing I thought is oh no it WAS a blood clot the doctor was wrong (I've been seeing him for 7 years and he wasn't the one to diagnose my insulin resistance so he is NOT high on my list of trust worthy folks these days) the bugger as broken loose and is running through my blood stream that's why the swelling has gone down.. ARGH!!!!!
MY mom had DVT(Deep Vein Thrombosis) when I was a teenager and she used to scare the heck out of me with it tell me how she could die how a clot could break loose and there would be nothing to save her, she traumatized me with this until I reached the point I couldn't concentrate in school and ultimately ended up quitting my junior year plus the lady who sat behind me at work just died 3 weeks ago from a pulmonay embolism caused by a blood clot that had been in her leg so all and all I've been pretty freaked out since this swelling in my leg first began.
I wish I could just be happy but every time I feel the slightest ache in my leg I freak. I mean it's been swollen for 3 years pushing against my bones and muscles of course it's going to hurt when the swelling goes down that alot of pressue!!!! It just drives me INSANE that I know these things for a fact but I just don't believe them...
SO I've succeeded in driving my self to the brink of anxiety central in fact I've got the nausea and other "pains" starting that I always got when I worried myself to death.. *sighs* So yea I'm ready for the loony bin now..
Help..
Trina
Well in the past month the doctor put me on meds for insulin resistance and sent me to a dietician by sheer miracle alone I've begun to loose weight so naturally the edema will start to decrease as well since it was mostly caused by my weight my doctor ruled but lo and behold I wake up this morning and tada my leg isn't swollen!!!!
Now normal people would be throwing a party right now right? Not me I immediately freaked right out. Why because the first thing I thought is oh no it WAS a blood clot the doctor was wrong (I've been seeing him for 7 years and he wasn't the one to diagnose my insulin resistance so he is NOT high on my list of trust worthy folks these days) the bugger as broken loose and is running through my blood stream that's why the swelling has gone down.. ARGH!!!!!
MY mom had DVT(Deep Vein Thrombosis) when I was a teenager and she used to scare the heck out of me with it tell me how she could die how a clot could break loose and there would be nothing to save her, she traumatized me with this until I reached the point I couldn't concentrate in school and ultimately ended up quitting my junior year plus the lady who sat behind me at work just died 3 weeks ago from a pulmonay embolism caused by a blood clot that had been in her leg so all and all I've been pretty freaked out since this swelling in my leg first began.
I wish I could just be happy but every time I feel the slightest ache in my leg I freak. I mean it's been swollen for 3 years pushing against my bones and muscles of course it's going to hurt when the swelling goes down that alot of pressue!!!! It just drives me INSANE that I know these things for a fact but I just don't believe them...
SO I've succeeded in driving my self to the brink of anxiety central in fact I've got the nausea and other "pains" starting that I always got when I worried myself to death.. *sighs* So yea I'm ready for the loony bin now..
Help..
Trina