MeglouH
27-05-17, 23:00
Ever since my twins were born (33 weeks and in neonatal natel unit) I have developed an issue with having to have things done, organised, things in certain places, the twins wearing same colour polo to play at pre school, things done my way. If I don't or they aren't I feel anxious or that something won't go right that day.
I think it stems from having the twins and everything needing to be done on time and correctly and laid out and origanised. feeds had to be every 2 hours to start with and giving in a tube which had to be cared for a certain way. Also they had to be cleaned with wipes and cotton wool due to their size and were in incubators, wires and tubes (I was petrified)
When home I continued being super organised. Bottles prepped, clothes laid out, changing bag ready, keys in easy reach if we need to get out quickly. I wouldn't let them stay out until after me and their dad split as I felt only me could look after them and I didn't want to burden people with the huge responsibility. My ex called me a deal and over the top and controlling.
Also things have certain places in my house I like to have certain times to do things. My current partner isn't kind about this aNd says I should understand his anxiety can't take me needing to be organised. He wants my supper and listening and understand Nd cooperation but I don't feel I get it back. Makes me feel silly and shame full for being organised and liking to know what is going on and when so I don't get worked up.
Anyone else have way to deal with this or have similar issues?
I think it stems from having the twins and everything needing to be done on time and correctly and laid out and origanised. feeds had to be every 2 hours to start with and giving in a tube which had to be cared for a certain way. Also they had to be cleaned with wipes and cotton wool due to their size and were in incubators, wires and tubes (I was petrified)
When home I continued being super organised. Bottles prepped, clothes laid out, changing bag ready, keys in easy reach if we need to get out quickly. I wouldn't let them stay out until after me and their dad split as I felt only me could look after them and I didn't want to burden people with the huge responsibility. My ex called me a deal and over the top and controlling.
Also things have certain places in my house I like to have certain times to do things. My current partner isn't kind about this aNd says I should understand his anxiety can't take me needing to be organised. He wants my supper and listening and understand Nd cooperation but I don't feel I get it back. Makes me feel silly and shame full for being organised and liking to know what is going on and when so I don't get worked up.
Anyone else have way to deal with this or have similar issues?