MsAnxiety
30-05-17, 15:50
Hi, never joined anywhere to speak about myself before this this is a big step for me. I am a happily married woman, who has a very supportive hubby, who loves me despite my troubles. So I know am I very lucky there.
Looking back it would seem I've struggles with anxiety since my late teens, I hated going out with my friends for a night out, and wasn't comfortable until I had a few drinks. Eventually I went down the ecstasy route most weekends for over a year. After meeting my hubby I stopped taking them and never looked back. But my anxiety was starting to take over, I would wake up on the morning of a family party or wedding, and I would be in such a state. I wouldn't want to go, and I made myself ill over it. Sometimes I made it to the event, but most times not. I've always hated going training on my own, and I've never walked into a pub on my own either. I've always been bothered with self confidence, body issues and low self worth. I have always been guilty of overthinking everything, and worrying about "what if".
In Sep 2012 I woke up one morning hysterical, thinking of suicide and how I was no good to anyone etc. I had lost my job, and couldn't see a future. I was diagnosed with depression and started on fluoxetine for it. I attended CBT too. It seemed to help and I got back on my feet and began working again in March 2013. I came off the AD that summer and felt fine until three years ago. I was put back on fluoxitine initially, but was then moved to Citalopram beginning of last year for it's calming effect as I was getting bouts of anger and irritability. The Doc kept increasing the does but then in December last year my Mum's cancer returned. I was switched to Sertraline increasing to 150mg after Mum's death in January.
It hasn't really helped and I had a panic attack at work last Thursday. I was given Diazepam and a prescription for Venlafaxine. I spoke to him about everything, and he's agreed that now it's anxiety thats the bigger issue.
For the last two years I've been working in mental health, I think this has played a big past in how I feel. I am more anxious about going to work, and being there than anything. Although I don't go out unless it's to the supermarket or to walk the dog, so I know the social anxiety is still a problem, but I avoid it.
I start a new job on the 19th of June and I'm really excited, but a little nervous too. I want to move on and to have a fresh start with my life. I want to be happy with myself and stop overthinking everything. I have used some of the Diazepam, but don't want to start on the Venlafaxine as I've read so many bad things about it. Plus I don't need to put anymore weight on, as in the last 3 years I've gained 3 stone, with doesn't help my feelings about myself. I came here last night and got caught up in deficiencies causing problems. After reading all day I've finally plucked up the courage to post and get some advice. Sorry for rabbiting on so long.
I'm looking at taking Omega 3, Magnesium, Vit C, Vit D and increasing my Vit B complex. I think I should add Vit K2 to the list as well. This is all with a view to taper off my AD's. Am I crazy or is it do-able?
Thanks
Paula
Looking back it would seem I've struggles with anxiety since my late teens, I hated going out with my friends for a night out, and wasn't comfortable until I had a few drinks. Eventually I went down the ecstasy route most weekends for over a year. After meeting my hubby I stopped taking them and never looked back. But my anxiety was starting to take over, I would wake up on the morning of a family party or wedding, and I would be in such a state. I wouldn't want to go, and I made myself ill over it. Sometimes I made it to the event, but most times not. I've always hated going training on my own, and I've never walked into a pub on my own either. I've always been bothered with self confidence, body issues and low self worth. I have always been guilty of overthinking everything, and worrying about "what if".
In Sep 2012 I woke up one morning hysterical, thinking of suicide and how I was no good to anyone etc. I had lost my job, and couldn't see a future. I was diagnosed with depression and started on fluoxetine for it. I attended CBT too. It seemed to help and I got back on my feet and began working again in March 2013. I came off the AD that summer and felt fine until three years ago. I was put back on fluoxitine initially, but was then moved to Citalopram beginning of last year for it's calming effect as I was getting bouts of anger and irritability. The Doc kept increasing the does but then in December last year my Mum's cancer returned. I was switched to Sertraline increasing to 150mg after Mum's death in January.
It hasn't really helped and I had a panic attack at work last Thursday. I was given Diazepam and a prescription for Venlafaxine. I spoke to him about everything, and he's agreed that now it's anxiety thats the bigger issue.
For the last two years I've been working in mental health, I think this has played a big past in how I feel. I am more anxious about going to work, and being there than anything. Although I don't go out unless it's to the supermarket or to walk the dog, so I know the social anxiety is still a problem, but I avoid it.
I start a new job on the 19th of June and I'm really excited, but a little nervous too. I want to move on and to have a fresh start with my life. I want to be happy with myself and stop overthinking everything. I have used some of the Diazepam, but don't want to start on the Venlafaxine as I've read so many bad things about it. Plus I don't need to put anymore weight on, as in the last 3 years I've gained 3 stone, with doesn't help my feelings about myself. I came here last night and got caught up in deficiencies causing problems. After reading all day I've finally plucked up the courage to post and get some advice. Sorry for rabbiting on so long.
I'm looking at taking Omega 3, Magnesium, Vit C, Vit D and increasing my Vit B complex. I think I should add Vit K2 to the list as well. This is all with a view to taper off my AD's. Am I crazy or is it do-able?
Thanks
Paula