Andromeda
30-05-17, 19:59
Hello!
I haven't posted here in what feels like forever.
But i'm after some advice because i know first hand how supportive this forum can be.
I'm going to Ibiza on thursday for 3 nights on a hen do and i couldn't be more anxious if i tried. Here are a list of my current fears:
1. Flying (I'm a terrible flyer - fear of plane crashes)
2. Being away from my support network and having anxiety on my own.
3. Dying over there (Heart attack, falling from a balcony, any other non specified tragedy)
4. Flying :weep:
5. Ibiza itself (not my thing, don't drink don't smoke don't do drugs, hate big crowds, loud music, flashing lights etc)
6. Flying
7. Generally being far away and trapped if anything bad happens.
Okay so you might have got this far and wondered why i've put myself in this situation given the above list and i'm sat here asking myself the same question.
But ultimately, one of my childhood friends is getting married and I wanted to be part of this once in a lifetime experience with her and when it was booked 6 months ago i was obviously possessed by someone who is the exact opposite to me and and therefore said yes to this crazy thing...
My friend doesn't know about my anxiety, and i don't really know any of the other girls that are going.
Last time i got on a flight (June 2016) i was with my boyfriend and my mum and dad and i ended up crying the whole way there telling my mum i was convinced this would be the end...and that was on a 45 minute flight to Dublin...:scared15:
So that is me right now, my heads everywhere, i don't want to go, if i hadn't forked out £7million for this bloody holiday then i assure you i would be cancelling and crawling into a hole.
Any advice is welcome :emot-wave:
I haven't posted here in what feels like forever.
But i'm after some advice because i know first hand how supportive this forum can be.
I'm going to Ibiza on thursday for 3 nights on a hen do and i couldn't be more anxious if i tried. Here are a list of my current fears:
1. Flying (I'm a terrible flyer - fear of plane crashes)
2. Being away from my support network and having anxiety on my own.
3. Dying over there (Heart attack, falling from a balcony, any other non specified tragedy)
4. Flying :weep:
5. Ibiza itself (not my thing, don't drink don't smoke don't do drugs, hate big crowds, loud music, flashing lights etc)
6. Flying
7. Generally being far away and trapped if anything bad happens.
Okay so you might have got this far and wondered why i've put myself in this situation given the above list and i'm sat here asking myself the same question.
But ultimately, one of my childhood friends is getting married and I wanted to be part of this once in a lifetime experience with her and when it was booked 6 months ago i was obviously possessed by someone who is the exact opposite to me and and therefore said yes to this crazy thing...
My friend doesn't know about my anxiety, and i don't really know any of the other girls that are going.
Last time i got on a flight (June 2016) i was with my boyfriend and my mum and dad and i ended up crying the whole way there telling my mum i was convinced this would be the end...and that was on a 45 minute flight to Dublin...:scared15:
So that is me right now, my heads everywhere, i don't want to go, if i hadn't forked out £7million for this bloody holiday then i assure you i would be cancelling and crawling into a hole.
Any advice is welcome :emot-wave: