Alex78
31-05-17, 21:41
I posted earlier in the week in the bowel problem section after an urgent referral to gastroenterologist after 7 weeks of loose and more frequent stools along with abdominal cramps. I was scared at the urgency. No blood but was very worried that I might have bowel cancer.
Since then, my mental health has gotten worse and worse. I am certain that I have it and seem to develop worse symptoms by the day. It has gotten so bad that because I coughed up a small amount of blood today, I have convinced myself that it has spread to my lungs. I am terrified. I've had 3 coughs this year and am so certain that this is the cancer spreading. I keep crying and can't function. I had a blood test 2 days ago and am too scared to call for the results in case I am anemic or the tests show something worse which will just confirm my fears (in my head, if not in reality).
I am now on holiday but cannot do anything with my family. I'm just so very frightened and don't know where to turn. I feel like it's spreading throughout me and all I can do is wait.
I'm so sorry if this sounds paranoid and illogical. I am aware of that but I can't get a handle on it. I have had CBT for health anxiety but nothing has ever been this bad. I am wholly convinced that I am dying. Please can someone help me?
Since then, my mental health has gotten worse and worse. I am certain that I have it and seem to develop worse symptoms by the day. It has gotten so bad that because I coughed up a small amount of blood today, I have convinced myself that it has spread to my lungs. I am terrified. I've had 3 coughs this year and am so certain that this is the cancer spreading. I keep crying and can't function. I had a blood test 2 days ago and am too scared to call for the results in case I am anemic or the tests show something worse which will just confirm my fears (in my head, if not in reality).
I am now on holiday but cannot do anything with my family. I'm just so very frightened and don't know where to turn. I feel like it's spreading throughout me and all I can do is wait.
I'm so sorry if this sounds paranoid and illogical. I am aware of that but I can't get a handle on it. I have had CBT for health anxiety but nothing has ever been this bad. I am wholly convinced that I am dying. Please can someone help me?