SLOWDOWN
01-06-17, 22:59
Im so worried about this, its not the first time, i have had these several times and i always find them when i wake up :( and i dont know if they were there before i slept :( its really bad, no because of the red dot, but because of my (i really hate this word because she's a monsters, my worst enemy) sister :( we dont get along at all, she's a total stranger to me even thought i lived with her under the same roof my whole life, im 21 shes almost 19, and she has so much bad company as her friends, she drinks a lot, she goes out at 2 am and comes back only in the next day or even later in the weekends, she posts things on facebook about being a proud ho, it's trendy between these imbecile teenagers, and brags about getting boys and kissing stranger people, i dont even need to talk about her friends do i? she has horribly promiscuous shitty friends too :( id be ok with that if she didnt live with me but she does :( honestly when she goes out to school i just hope she won't come back, that something bad will happen to her because that would bring me great peace and relief, yes that's how bad i despise and fear her, i dont even get close to her, when im cooking and she gets close to pick something i instantly very fast move away because i fear she is going to prick me with a infected syringe either from her or from her friends that they gave her to infect me because im sure she talks bad about me too, and they have seen me some times when they came here to bring her to a night out.
I'm completely the opposite, i have no friends, i never went out, i never drank, i never smoked, i never used drugs and i'm 21, i had depression and anxiety for years but my anxiety has been getting MUCH MUCH worse since i saw a pic of her in some strange house with 3 grown men with beers on their hands and she has even a pic kissing one of them, she was 3 days out when this happened. UGH. i got so scared, how could she be so nasty? and she hates me she really does, she envious of me because i have such a good boyfriend that im going to meet in person one day soon, we have been dating for almost 2 years long distance but he has real plans and he helped me with so many things! he bought me a frigobar because i also have stopped eating, im scared she put blood on my food in the fridge so now for me to eat my father has to buy food and i have to make it right away, im not letting anything i will eat in the fridge, no way, because of her and her "friends" so terrified!
i have gone 2 days without eating, finally the frigobar is arriving and it will end, it will be in my room, i have also 2 locks in my room door (i had no door in my room before, my Love bought me it) one is the door knob closure which i think isnt safe enough i want a external lock on it and the other is a padlock, i lock them all day while im in my room, and never forget locking them when im sleeping, i lock them when i go out of my room to cook or to talk with my father i always do that, so lets go back to my subject i'm really sorry but i know people wouldnt understand me if i didnt explain how bad my situation here is.
so i woke up with this very super tiny light red single dot right on my wrist vein and now i'm imagining that she entered in my locked room somewheat, the door closure must not be really difficult to open since you can see its inside where you put the key and turn it to the other side, and when you do it theres still the padlock locked inside! and im afraid she manages to unlock it someway :( then go and prick me with a infected syringe while i'm asleep on my vein and i dont wake up, im so terrified im a deep sleeper, id ont know how to tell, but as you know all my life i have been drug, alcohol and cigarette free. and then she manages to close the padlock inside again and the door closure.. the door closure can be locked and opened from the inside and outside too but the padlock can only be inside :( its causes me so much anxiety, i have been so sad, depressed, worried, i know she wants to see me do bad and that she gets happy when something bad happens to me, it's horrible :weep: and to think that i saved this ho's life when she was a kid drowning in the pool, oh boy how i regret that :weep: if i only knew she would become this promiscuous monster i would have never done this, its my fault :weep: but how would i know?
i read about petechiae and saw pics of it but they seen much more bigger and have a strong red color and a bit raised and more of them, and mines small dont dont have any of these features, its a light color, totally flat, pretty small and theres only one of it, what scares me the most is that it's over a vein :( it's not a pimple at all its totally flat! sorry but i cant post pictures because i have no posts.
Thanks in advance
I'm completely the opposite, i have no friends, i never went out, i never drank, i never smoked, i never used drugs and i'm 21, i had depression and anxiety for years but my anxiety has been getting MUCH MUCH worse since i saw a pic of her in some strange house with 3 grown men with beers on their hands and she has even a pic kissing one of them, she was 3 days out when this happened. UGH. i got so scared, how could she be so nasty? and she hates me she really does, she envious of me because i have such a good boyfriend that im going to meet in person one day soon, we have been dating for almost 2 years long distance but he has real plans and he helped me with so many things! he bought me a frigobar because i also have stopped eating, im scared she put blood on my food in the fridge so now for me to eat my father has to buy food and i have to make it right away, im not letting anything i will eat in the fridge, no way, because of her and her "friends" so terrified!
i have gone 2 days without eating, finally the frigobar is arriving and it will end, it will be in my room, i have also 2 locks in my room door (i had no door in my room before, my Love bought me it) one is the door knob closure which i think isnt safe enough i want a external lock on it and the other is a padlock, i lock them all day while im in my room, and never forget locking them when im sleeping, i lock them when i go out of my room to cook or to talk with my father i always do that, so lets go back to my subject i'm really sorry but i know people wouldnt understand me if i didnt explain how bad my situation here is.
so i woke up with this very super tiny light red single dot right on my wrist vein and now i'm imagining that she entered in my locked room somewheat, the door closure must not be really difficult to open since you can see its inside where you put the key and turn it to the other side, and when you do it theres still the padlock locked inside! and im afraid she manages to unlock it someway :( then go and prick me with a infected syringe while i'm asleep on my vein and i dont wake up, im so terrified im a deep sleeper, id ont know how to tell, but as you know all my life i have been drug, alcohol and cigarette free. and then she manages to close the padlock inside again and the door closure.. the door closure can be locked and opened from the inside and outside too but the padlock can only be inside :( its causes me so much anxiety, i have been so sad, depressed, worried, i know she wants to see me do bad and that she gets happy when something bad happens to me, it's horrible :weep: and to think that i saved this ho's life when she was a kid drowning in the pool, oh boy how i regret that :weep: if i only knew she would become this promiscuous monster i would have never done this, its my fault :weep: but how would i know?
i read about petechiae and saw pics of it but they seen much more bigger and have a strong red color and a bit raised and more of them, and mines small dont dont have any of these features, its a light color, totally flat, pretty small and theres only one of it, what scares me the most is that it's over a vein :( it's not a pimple at all its totally flat! sorry but i cant post pictures because i have no posts.
Thanks in advance