KBeans
02-06-17, 09:57
So I was terrified the last week that I had cervical cancer. I had lots of the scary symptoms but yesterday I had a full examination and it's all fine. However I still have the backache and feel a little under the weather.
Yesterday I felt like a normal person, which was wonderful.
I started worrying last night about a headache I had which passed very quickly and then I got panicky when I felt sleepy just before bed as I felt like it was a weird kind of sudden sleepy and my eyes felt heavy.
I'm still off work until next week with this anxiety and I started feeling bad as soon as I woke up today. My backache had almost completely gone when I woke up but then I started focussing on my head again and after about an hour I felt really sleepy again and fell asleep for 2 hours, when I woke up I was still really sleepy but have forced myself to get up as i'm afraid it's all related to my brain and that there's a tumour or something and that's why i'm feeling sleepy and that if I fall asleep i'll be in a coma!
Now have a weird cold sensation in the same spot i've been stressing about on my forehead and my back is really hurting again.
I know deep down i'm just transferring my HA to another part of my body and that's why I have head tension and why my back is hurting. Plus i'm sure that's why I was am so tired as the last week has been hellish.
Any words of kindness or advice would be much appreciated. I'm thinking about seeking out CBT therapy as it's helped me in the past. I'm just finding it so hard to accept that there isn't something deadly wrong with me after being SO convinced I had cervical cancer, plus I'm still waiting to have an ultrasound because of my back pain and think that they'll find something awful elsewhere (e.g kidney cancer, liver, bowel).
I don't think it helps that i'm just sitting around at home either!
Yesterday I felt like a normal person, which was wonderful.
I started worrying last night about a headache I had which passed very quickly and then I got panicky when I felt sleepy just before bed as I felt like it was a weird kind of sudden sleepy and my eyes felt heavy.
I'm still off work until next week with this anxiety and I started feeling bad as soon as I woke up today. My backache had almost completely gone when I woke up but then I started focussing on my head again and after about an hour I felt really sleepy again and fell asleep for 2 hours, when I woke up I was still really sleepy but have forced myself to get up as i'm afraid it's all related to my brain and that there's a tumour or something and that's why i'm feeling sleepy and that if I fall asleep i'll be in a coma!
Now have a weird cold sensation in the same spot i've been stressing about on my forehead and my back is really hurting again.
I know deep down i'm just transferring my HA to another part of my body and that's why I have head tension and why my back is hurting. Plus i'm sure that's why I was am so tired as the last week has been hellish.
Any words of kindness or advice would be much appreciated. I'm thinking about seeking out CBT therapy as it's helped me in the past. I'm just finding it so hard to accept that there isn't something deadly wrong with me after being SO convinced I had cervical cancer, plus I'm still waiting to have an ultrasound because of my back pain and think that they'll find something awful elsewhere (e.g kidney cancer, liver, bowel).
I don't think it helps that i'm just sitting around at home either!