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Ameilia432
04-06-17, 18:03
Hi, I am 16 y/o girl who is wondering about my sexuality, like am I bisexual, lesbian, bi-curious??
I have in another post discussed that I have experimented with girls in the past, only kissing, nothing more than that. With family friends. Regardless, I d have fairly large crushes on guys and always have wanted somebody to be my boyfriend.
However, I do tend to watch both heterosexual and lesbian porn, both get me equally as turned on, lesbian a bit more than heterosexual but I do fantasise me and my relationships with guys. I can't really imagine going 'down' on a girl like I do with guys. I do find guys more attractive sexually but I do tend to stare at girls asses and boobs more, I tend to want to 'hold?' and touch a girls boobs more (that's it). I do get a bit uncomfortable when I see couples kissing in real life (general PDA) regardless on whether they are girl/boy; boy/boy or girl/girl. I get that 'tingly' feeling all over my body (like sweating and babbling and anxiety and stuff) when I see a hot guy (I dont know about the downstairs department however)

Still the concept of being with a boy and doing stuff with him gets me nervous, maybe because I havent had a good experience with them (like boys haven't liked me) and I am just scared to do sexual stuff with them. I do have sexual dreams about boys and girls. The ones with girls tend to make me more confused and uncomfortable than with guys.
I dont know if I am in denial of my past of having experiences with girls as a child, this all stopped when I was around 12? I did experiment with my little sister until I was 13/14, but that was nothing too serious, just role playing and fantasy and whatnot. I do feel embarrassed about it now that I look back.

What do you all think? I feel a pull towards guys and want to go out with them but I find girls attractive and stuff. When I was younger, I did tend to stare at girls when they got changed, most likely cus they had bigger boobs than me and I had none. I didnt wanna touch them or anything.
Thanks

ankietyjoe
04-06-17, 19:41
Everybody is scared/intimidated by sex at your age, and if they say they're not they are lying.

There's no rush, just go with the flow. You don't really have to define yourself as one thing or the other these days.