MrDanny
10-06-17, 12:13
Im going through a bad patch due to a certain fear (a fear i faced many times, the last time was a few months ago and got over it, i wont say what fear due to triggers). The anxiety seems to be in a loop now going higher and lower, regardless if the fear is fully on my mind. Even when the anxiety calms down and im thinking about the fear and not worrying, the anxiety starts its loop and it starts again.
I just wish i had the mindset from when i was a kid, i still worried dont get me wrong but it wasnt obsessive back then, and i only worried when it was understandable to. But the reason i want my kidself mindset is due to this one time when i was 10/11 and i got appendicitis, and i remember not caring when i over heard i needed an operation (all i wanted to do was sleep since it was the middle of the night, but they wouldnt let me since they were checking on me etc).
I just wanna go back to it, cause i was so proud of that kid me looking back. I was slighty nervous before i went under, but all that night i wasnt scared at all (about what could happen etc, nothing like that crosed my mind). I remember when i was woken up from the slumber (they do it to see if everything is fine) and being annoyed cause i wanted to go back to sleep lol. I just wanna go back to that brave me again. Cause if i can go through that without fear, surely i can now?.
Sorry for the long rant, and thanks for reading.
I just wish i had the mindset from when i was a kid, i still worried dont get me wrong but it wasnt obsessive back then, and i only worried when it was understandable to. But the reason i want my kidself mindset is due to this one time when i was 10/11 and i got appendicitis, and i remember not caring when i over heard i needed an operation (all i wanted to do was sleep since it was the middle of the night, but they wouldnt let me since they were checking on me etc).
I just wanna go back to it, cause i was so proud of that kid me looking back. I was slighty nervous before i went under, but all that night i wasnt scared at all (about what could happen etc, nothing like that crosed my mind). I remember when i was woken up from the slumber (they do it to see if everything is fine) and being annoyed cause i wanted to go back to sleep lol. I just wanna go back to that brave me again. Cause if i can go through that without fear, surely i can now?.
Sorry for the long rant, and thanks for reading.