Thelegend27
16-06-17, 07:38
Well it's back... I've spent the past 3 days worrying myself sick and I think tonight is the worst. I literally thought to myself yep you have cancer, I know this is silly to diagnose yourself, but my mind is a complete mess.
What started it was some chest discomfort off and on it was mostly the chest wall and my lungs felt like I had a slight chest cold, and this has been going on for 3 days, but I think it's gerd, because I take antacids and it seems to go away for a while.
Then I was moving some wooden pallets and later noticed a small bruise on my forearm, then today I was moving some furniture and afterwards noticed 2 mor bruises on the opposite forearm. Leukemia bells started ringing, even though I had a clear blood count, I still worried myself. Then tonight I guess one of my palpable lymph nodes got itself on top of a muscle and it was very palpable just touching the skin I could feel a small lump, but it's back to the way it was before now I guess it moved back to it's spot.
I have a doctors appointment on June 27th and I'm trying to push through till then but I've almost drove myself to the er with panic.
I'm going to see a therapist after this next check up if everything goes well so maybe then I can forget about all this cancer stuff and focus on my responsibilities.
I have a serious question, I have never considered suicide, but lately I've been imagining it in my head a lot, again not considering it I just keep playing it out in my head and I know this cannot be a good sign, please any advice?
What started it was some chest discomfort off and on it was mostly the chest wall and my lungs felt like I had a slight chest cold, and this has been going on for 3 days, but I think it's gerd, because I take antacids and it seems to go away for a while.
Then I was moving some wooden pallets and later noticed a small bruise on my forearm, then today I was moving some furniture and afterwards noticed 2 mor bruises on the opposite forearm. Leukemia bells started ringing, even though I had a clear blood count, I still worried myself. Then tonight I guess one of my palpable lymph nodes got itself on top of a muscle and it was very palpable just touching the skin I could feel a small lump, but it's back to the way it was before now I guess it moved back to it's spot.
I have a doctors appointment on June 27th and I'm trying to push through till then but I've almost drove myself to the er with panic.
I'm going to see a therapist after this next check up if everything goes well so maybe then I can forget about all this cancer stuff and focus on my responsibilities.
I have a serious question, I have never considered suicide, but lately I've been imagining it in my head a lot, again not considering it I just keep playing it out in my head and I know this cannot be a good sign, please any advice?