sheslostcontrol
17-06-17, 12:32
Hi everyone,
so I've been battling some pretty heavy anxiety which sometimes leads to panic attacks since April (I mean, I had it in the past, but had been really fine for the past four years). It's mainly health anxiety, occasionally fear of dying (not death in itself, only dying and not getting to do all the things I'd still like to do in my life). I've managed to pass my final exams perfectly and all in the meantime, so I guess it has not had that much effect on my 'outside' life, but it's pretty horrible on the 'inside'.
So, I go to therapy, and I also went to see a psychiatrist. He wasn't really helpful, so this Wednesday I went to another one and she gave me some citalopram based medicine. I was hesitant at first because I was feeling better and thought I could do without meds, but I gave it a shot, thinking 'why not'. Oh, how wrong I was. It was only a half (actually more like a 1/4) of the 10 mg pill, but I got a terrible panic attack while washing the dishes, unable to control it (which I had been able to do before). I had to take some benzo to stop it. Then I cried for like an hour and felt desperate, which had not been a part of my problems before. Anyway, I'm not taking it anymore and am better, but...
yesterday I got these muscle twitches in all my body, including my head (I had them before, only not this strong) and had a weird feeling of heaviness of my head and my whole body, also my legs hurt and I have this constant weird fear which is a kind of a deja-vu feeling only I know that I actually had this feeling in the past. So, anyway, now I'm super worried that I might be having epilepsy. It's ridiculous and my psychotherapist has assured me that these are not the symptoms, but... I keep worrying. I also got my period, which Iwas not supposed to get for another week, and it was really heavy, which scared me even more.
(Before epilepsy, my major fear was my heart, getting a heart attack and all that, though my heart seems to be okay, only I'm overweight, so I guess that added up to the fear, but I'm trying to lose weight.)
Is there anyone else with similar worries? 😞
I know we can all get through this and I hope you're having a great day. 🙂
so I've been battling some pretty heavy anxiety which sometimes leads to panic attacks since April (I mean, I had it in the past, but had been really fine for the past four years). It's mainly health anxiety, occasionally fear of dying (not death in itself, only dying and not getting to do all the things I'd still like to do in my life). I've managed to pass my final exams perfectly and all in the meantime, so I guess it has not had that much effect on my 'outside' life, but it's pretty horrible on the 'inside'.
So, I go to therapy, and I also went to see a psychiatrist. He wasn't really helpful, so this Wednesday I went to another one and she gave me some citalopram based medicine. I was hesitant at first because I was feeling better and thought I could do without meds, but I gave it a shot, thinking 'why not'. Oh, how wrong I was. It was only a half (actually more like a 1/4) of the 10 mg pill, but I got a terrible panic attack while washing the dishes, unable to control it (which I had been able to do before). I had to take some benzo to stop it. Then I cried for like an hour and felt desperate, which had not been a part of my problems before. Anyway, I'm not taking it anymore and am better, but...
yesterday I got these muscle twitches in all my body, including my head (I had them before, only not this strong) and had a weird feeling of heaviness of my head and my whole body, also my legs hurt and I have this constant weird fear which is a kind of a deja-vu feeling only I know that I actually had this feeling in the past. So, anyway, now I'm super worried that I might be having epilepsy. It's ridiculous and my psychotherapist has assured me that these are not the symptoms, but... I keep worrying. I also got my period, which Iwas not supposed to get for another week, and it was really heavy, which scared me even more.
(Before epilepsy, my major fear was my heart, getting a heart attack and all that, though my heart seems to be okay, only I'm overweight, so I guess that added up to the fear, but I'm trying to lose weight.)
Is there anyone else with similar worries? 😞
I know we can all get through this and I hope you're having a great day. 🙂