eflow
20-06-17, 01:54
Hello,
I am a 35 year old, Canadian male. I have dealt with anxiety and panic almost since I could remember. I lived un-diagnosed for a majority of my life, because I was doctor hopping (using walk-in clinics) and just allowing unhealthy trains of thought and panic control my life. Anxiety and panic have costed me a lot of lost time in my life, relationships and jobs. I have put many people through hell by living in a constant-panic/anxiety state and dragging people that love me through my emotions, reactions and habits. I have struggled with addictions as a form of self-medication, yet, I somehow remain functional. I have put myself through adult education (after dropping out) and through 6 years of university. Currently, I am in a profession where I help people, but I still struggle with my own mental habits. I am dealing with OCD tendencies and OCD harm (intrusive thoughts). These thoughts have gotten worse and now I am unconsciously sabotaging my relationship because of it. I have a wonderful, loving, caring, understanding partner, whom I love with all of my heart. However, I am damaging my relationship with her because I am avoiding the OCD harm thoughts by avoiding contact and intimacy with her. I can sure use advice on where to start and how to get therapy or something. Thank you.
I am a 35 year old, Canadian male. I have dealt with anxiety and panic almost since I could remember. I lived un-diagnosed for a majority of my life, because I was doctor hopping (using walk-in clinics) and just allowing unhealthy trains of thought and panic control my life. Anxiety and panic have costed me a lot of lost time in my life, relationships and jobs. I have put many people through hell by living in a constant-panic/anxiety state and dragging people that love me through my emotions, reactions and habits. I have struggled with addictions as a form of self-medication, yet, I somehow remain functional. I have put myself through adult education (after dropping out) and through 6 years of university. Currently, I am in a profession where I help people, but I still struggle with my own mental habits. I am dealing with OCD tendencies and OCD harm (intrusive thoughts). These thoughts have gotten worse and now I am unconsciously sabotaging my relationship because of it. I have a wonderful, loving, caring, understanding partner, whom I love with all of my heart. However, I am damaging my relationship with her because I am avoiding the OCD harm thoughts by avoiding contact and intimacy with her. I can sure use advice on where to start and how to get therapy or something. Thank you.