Chrysmar09
21-06-17, 22:41
I have posted on this board a few times about my bouts with intrusive thoughts and anxiety. I was just offered by my job a chance to relocate to Houston Texas again and they will help me with finding an apartment and everything. I currently stay with my parents and have been since 2015 with my daughter and it hasn't been the best thing for me. But now I am scared shitless about leaving even though where I am now isn't good for me.
I am afraid of leaving because it will just be me and my child and with my mental health I am afraid of losing control or having a nervous breakdown and no one is around to help me. I have lived on my own and moved out of state before twice but this last bout with GAD and intrusive thoughts has been the worst. I have been having bad side effects with ADs so right now I have Klonopin but I don't take it. I am seeing a counselor here and even she wants me to move out but I wasn't't prepared to move out of state just yet. My job already sent me money to help me move but I am crying because Im so scared of being alone while dealing with all of this.
I feel like I can't move away just yet and my parents house is my safety net.... how can I get my independence back and live my life and raise my child if I am afraid so much??? I don't know what to do?
I am afraid of leaving because it will just be me and my child and with my mental health I am afraid of losing control or having a nervous breakdown and no one is around to help me. I have lived on my own and moved out of state before twice but this last bout with GAD and intrusive thoughts has been the worst. I have been having bad side effects with ADs so right now I have Klonopin but I don't take it. I am seeing a counselor here and even she wants me to move out but I wasn't't prepared to move out of state just yet. My job already sent me money to help me move but I am crying because Im so scared of being alone while dealing with all of this.
I feel like I can't move away just yet and my parents house is my safety net.... how can I get my independence back and live my life and raise my child if I am afraid so much??? I don't know what to do?