maianixon
26-06-17, 15:52
I'm so tired of this HA thing, everytime I think it's finally getting better it gets worse again and I don't even feel anxious anymore just full on depressed because it's taken over my life, everyone around is tired of me, I'm tired of me, soon this forum will probably be tired of melike I don't know what to do anymore. I've been taking Mirtazapine for a bit over a month and at first it helped a little but then it stopped and my doctor increased the dose and since the dose increase I've been feeling so depressed I can't function...
My vision has also been terrible 24/7 for the past month with loads of visual snow and there's no improvement on it whatsoever and its starting to really get to me. Both of my legs also hurt really badly behind the knees to the point where it hurts to stand sometimes, like some days is better and some worse but it always come back like surely I couldnt injure both of my knees the same way at the same time lol. I asked the doctor last time that I'm worried it could be something neurological and he said that if it was neurological it would be just one side not both legs, like can that actually all be caused by anxiety?? I'm so deep in a MS fear I can't seem to get out of it, even a clear MRI didn't convince me...
I just really don't know what to do anymore this is becoming too much to cope and right now I feel like I have no one so this forum is the only place i can turn too...
I've been getting therapy which I really like but it's only once a week so it helps me a bit but then i feel horrible again by the next session and my therapist is on holiday at the moment and i think lack of therapy also really got to me... I just feel really hopeless
My vision has also been terrible 24/7 for the past month with loads of visual snow and there's no improvement on it whatsoever and its starting to really get to me. Both of my legs also hurt really badly behind the knees to the point where it hurts to stand sometimes, like some days is better and some worse but it always come back like surely I couldnt injure both of my knees the same way at the same time lol. I asked the doctor last time that I'm worried it could be something neurological and he said that if it was neurological it would be just one side not both legs, like can that actually all be caused by anxiety?? I'm so deep in a MS fear I can't seem to get out of it, even a clear MRI didn't convince me...
I just really don't know what to do anymore this is becoming too much to cope and right now I feel like I have no one so this forum is the only place i can turn too...
I've been getting therapy which I really like but it's only once a week so it helps me a bit but then i feel horrible again by the next session and my therapist is on holiday at the moment and i think lack of therapy also really got to me... I just feel really hopeless