Panda22
27-06-17, 18:37
I'm on holiday now with my parents, brother, sister.
But can't seem to enjoy the holiday AT ALL.. I feel anxious when going out to places.. like supermarktets, shopping centers and anywhere i can't escape quickly..
Have that nervous feeling in my stomach all the time, unless i'm at home. Today we went walking high up in the mountains.. i got car sick at first driving there.. and then walking in the mountains i felt so close to having a full panic attack the whole time. I had no phone connection so couldn't distract myself at all. I felt like i was going crazy.. My mom tried to calm me down but i just felt SO uncomfortable. I get existential thoughts too like 'why am i here' 'am i really alive right now'.. and it just sends me into panic for some reason. Is this normal with anxiety?? I just felt like this time i was going to go crazy and never return to normal again. Like my whole world was ending. The panic feelings are so intense i get worried it's something more serious then panic. I've had the feeling a 1000 times before and never gone crazy but i still worry everytime that this will be the one my brain can't handle and i'll never be able to think normal again..
When i'm back home everything calms down and i feel fine.. I've been to many psychologists and they all say it's just anxiety and panic and there's nothing wrong with me...i would never go crazy etc. But the feelings get so intense? Does anyone else have this?? I just hope there's nothing wrong with my brain ... Please someone help this is making me depressed and it just makes me want to stay home always :weep:
But can't seem to enjoy the holiday AT ALL.. I feel anxious when going out to places.. like supermarktets, shopping centers and anywhere i can't escape quickly..
Have that nervous feeling in my stomach all the time, unless i'm at home. Today we went walking high up in the mountains.. i got car sick at first driving there.. and then walking in the mountains i felt so close to having a full panic attack the whole time. I had no phone connection so couldn't distract myself at all. I felt like i was going crazy.. My mom tried to calm me down but i just felt SO uncomfortable. I get existential thoughts too like 'why am i here' 'am i really alive right now'.. and it just sends me into panic for some reason. Is this normal with anxiety?? I just felt like this time i was going to go crazy and never return to normal again. Like my whole world was ending. The panic feelings are so intense i get worried it's something more serious then panic. I've had the feeling a 1000 times before and never gone crazy but i still worry everytime that this will be the one my brain can't handle and i'll never be able to think normal again..
When i'm back home everything calms down and i feel fine.. I've been to many psychologists and they all say it's just anxiety and panic and there's nothing wrong with me...i would never go crazy etc. But the feelings get so intense? Does anyone else have this?? I just hope there's nothing wrong with my brain ... Please someone help this is making me depressed and it just makes me want to stay home always :weep: