nok_tok
30-06-17, 09:32
Every morning I wake with a complete sense of dread, it’s so difficult to face the world and the challenges the day brings. Modern life is full of pressure, chaos, and busyness. Competitiveness. I feel so alone, so nervous, and so sick.
There’s always something going on, something to remember and sort out, my poor brain can’t cope, I can never get on top of my lists. I can’t face anything at the same time. Cant concentrate on one given task.
I feel sad that my kids are growing up and I panic for what the future holds, I worry about them immensely and don’t like the thought of them going out alone or with friends, I worry about their welfare
I find it easier to hide myself away and eat than to face the world. Eating is a comfort but it’s also making me feel more shit about myself as I look disgusting. I used to care and try and feel good about myself but I’m not strong enough and need something to take away the pain even if I have to face the consequences of being fat and disgusting
The anxiety feeling makes me feel suicidal which hurts even more cause I would not dare do it but the feelings are so intense its almost cruel.
I feel so paranoid, like people (neighbours) are talking about me and plotting against me, when I leave my house I feel like everyone’s watching me and what im doing. I hate it when the kids are loud outside; I hate drawing attention to myself
I really hate driving a car; school run twice a day is so stressful, busy traffic
I hate supermarkets, I cant cope, cant find anything I need. Get frustrated
Its no life being a complete state of worry and anxiety. I have no body to talk to and nobody to unload myself on to.
Im so fragile, I hate being to close to other people, although I love to hug my kids
Im not normal,
It must be great to wake up and feel happy, or even wake up and feel normal
I wish I could just stay in bed all day/hide away
i have tried every anti depressant, even spent years on them but they generally dont work or make me tired or erratic
feel like im wasting my life away because of this awful feeling.
i cant afford councelling, my gp's cant help me
There’s always something going on, something to remember and sort out, my poor brain can’t cope, I can never get on top of my lists. I can’t face anything at the same time. Cant concentrate on one given task.
I feel sad that my kids are growing up and I panic for what the future holds, I worry about them immensely and don’t like the thought of them going out alone or with friends, I worry about their welfare
I find it easier to hide myself away and eat than to face the world. Eating is a comfort but it’s also making me feel more shit about myself as I look disgusting. I used to care and try and feel good about myself but I’m not strong enough and need something to take away the pain even if I have to face the consequences of being fat and disgusting
The anxiety feeling makes me feel suicidal which hurts even more cause I would not dare do it but the feelings are so intense its almost cruel.
I feel so paranoid, like people (neighbours) are talking about me and plotting against me, when I leave my house I feel like everyone’s watching me and what im doing. I hate it when the kids are loud outside; I hate drawing attention to myself
I really hate driving a car; school run twice a day is so stressful, busy traffic
I hate supermarkets, I cant cope, cant find anything I need. Get frustrated
Its no life being a complete state of worry and anxiety. I have no body to talk to and nobody to unload myself on to.
Im so fragile, I hate being to close to other people, although I love to hug my kids
Im not normal,
It must be great to wake up and feel happy, or even wake up and feel normal
I wish I could just stay in bed all day/hide away
i have tried every anti depressant, even spent years on them but they generally dont work or make me tired or erratic
feel like im wasting my life away because of this awful feeling.
i cant afford councelling, my gp's cant help me