samina77
05-07-17, 22:06
Hello everyone,
I've been on here for a couple of weeks and reading this forum has helped.
I really want to share my health anxiety worries and ask for anyone who's experienced anything similar...
Apologies in advance for the long post :scared15:
I had a baby about 5 months ago. When I was discharged from hospital they said some placenta was still in my uterus and they randomly found a polyp in my bladder. I had been a pillar of strength and zen during pregnancy, well lost that in less than 5 minutes. I went home happy with my baby but completely terrified about my health. Every time I looked at my son all I could thing was that I was dying and wouldn't get to see him grow up...
Fast forward... I had the polyp removed 3 months ago, it was confirmed as a rare papilloma, benign with low malignant potential, now I have to have regular check ups (next one is in 2 days time and am freaking out a bit...). The placenta thank goodness was absorbed / expelled. The only problem now is every little thing I feel with my body, I convince myself I have some terrible disease. I spent the last 3-4 months using Dr Google EVERY DAY... I have managed to stop doing this (although I have done it a couple of times since) and I definitely feel better for not doing it but I feel like I'm living on the edge all the time, I long to be able to just relax and not think about being ill.
I had another blow in that my grandfather passed away about a month ago. My HA went through the roof as I saw him just before he died, he had cancer and it freaked the hell out of me. I had a couple of panic attacks, one time in front of my parents.
I am seeing a psychologist now and have bought a CBT book... I am definitely better than I was a couple of months ago but still not ok.
I have some "ongoing" little niggles that freak me out quite a lot... I get intermittent weird sensations in my left abdomen, sometimes between my belly button and pelvic bone and sometimes lower down. I wouldn't say it was "pain" as such but it's there... I have seen my GP and she says my stomach feels fine??? She thinks it's just my body going back to normal after the birth...? Has anyone had anything similar?
The other thing is occasional blood in the stool, I have had IBS and hemorrhoids for years and occasionally saw a spot of blood on the TP but since giving birth I have found blood kind of mixed in when I wipe (so sorry if that's TMI). I went to the GP and she prescribed me a cream, I saw nothing for about a month or so, then on SUnday morning, bam, again. Freaked out big time. I'm going to see a proctologist in early August so I know I'm doing the right thing but I am so afraid even though reading loads of posts about the same thing on here have calmed me down a bit.
Apologies again for the long post, anxiety can be such a lonely place, I'd be very grateful for any feedback or similar stories.
S :blush:
I've been on here for a couple of weeks and reading this forum has helped.
I really want to share my health anxiety worries and ask for anyone who's experienced anything similar...
Apologies in advance for the long post :scared15:
I had a baby about 5 months ago. When I was discharged from hospital they said some placenta was still in my uterus and they randomly found a polyp in my bladder. I had been a pillar of strength and zen during pregnancy, well lost that in less than 5 minutes. I went home happy with my baby but completely terrified about my health. Every time I looked at my son all I could thing was that I was dying and wouldn't get to see him grow up...
Fast forward... I had the polyp removed 3 months ago, it was confirmed as a rare papilloma, benign with low malignant potential, now I have to have regular check ups (next one is in 2 days time and am freaking out a bit...). The placenta thank goodness was absorbed / expelled. The only problem now is every little thing I feel with my body, I convince myself I have some terrible disease. I spent the last 3-4 months using Dr Google EVERY DAY... I have managed to stop doing this (although I have done it a couple of times since) and I definitely feel better for not doing it but I feel like I'm living on the edge all the time, I long to be able to just relax and not think about being ill.
I had another blow in that my grandfather passed away about a month ago. My HA went through the roof as I saw him just before he died, he had cancer and it freaked the hell out of me. I had a couple of panic attacks, one time in front of my parents.
I am seeing a psychologist now and have bought a CBT book... I am definitely better than I was a couple of months ago but still not ok.
I have some "ongoing" little niggles that freak me out quite a lot... I get intermittent weird sensations in my left abdomen, sometimes between my belly button and pelvic bone and sometimes lower down. I wouldn't say it was "pain" as such but it's there... I have seen my GP and she says my stomach feels fine??? She thinks it's just my body going back to normal after the birth...? Has anyone had anything similar?
The other thing is occasional blood in the stool, I have had IBS and hemorrhoids for years and occasionally saw a spot of blood on the TP but since giving birth I have found blood kind of mixed in when I wipe (so sorry if that's TMI). I went to the GP and she prescribed me a cream, I saw nothing for about a month or so, then on SUnday morning, bam, again. Freaked out big time. I'm going to see a proctologist in early August so I know I'm doing the right thing but I am so afraid even though reading loads of posts about the same thing on here have calmed me down a bit.
Apologies again for the long post, anxiety can be such a lonely place, I'd be very grateful for any feedback or similar stories.
S :blush: