ChildOfTheKing
08-07-17, 06:38
Hello all, been a short while.
When my anxiety journey first began I was constantly feeling short of breath and dizzy, headaches, nausea, etc. At the beginning of the year I had so many tests including bloods, chest x ray, ct scan of the head, head/neck MRI, etc. I was so convinced I had something very wrong but nothing profound ever showed up. I joined this forum to share & relate & have received a lot of helpful advice and hopefully I have helped someone along the way as well.
I've found a new job after being unemployed for nearly half a year, which I'm happy about as that means being busy and distracted. Have been working for a little over a month now. My breathing sensation has nearly gone away completely, it'll come and go in spurts throughout the day and sometimes I'll go a whole day without breathing bothering me. That's a relief as it was my most distressing symptom.
However the light headed feeling remains pretty much throughout the day. There will be brief moments in the day when it's gone but not enough and I know I still fear this sensation a lot. Most of the time it's not a TRUE dizzyness where the room spins crazy though I've had it a couple of times (will explain in a bit.) It's more of a weird floaty disconnected feeling like everything is not quite right or real. It's called depersonalization I believe. However I have had actual rocking dizzyness. And even a couple of weeks ago I was at work and feeling stressed.
My hours had just gotten extended that week after some unforseen circumstances at my workplace and I was dealing with clients who were giving me a hard time. Suddenly I felt like the room was spinning hard felt a head rush and like I was going to faint. I managed to keep myself collected as I was with a client and I couldn't just run out screaming. So I kept working like nothing was happening. Most of it subsided after an hour or two but still felt very strange. Today when I was at the gym I was already feeling funny head sensations and the spinning came on, I was so scared and wanted to run out screaming again. Felt like I'd faint or fall but neither ever happens. I kept trying to go on as if nothing was happening but eventually left. Had myself a good cry feeling distressed. it mostly subsided after about two hours but now I'm scared and still feel the weird head sensations and disconnection. Ive been stressed and adjusting to my new job plus working extra hours and feeling pretty tired. And yet I keep thinking the worst case scenarios like something wrong in the brain, even though CT & MRI earlier this year showed nothing. For that matter I've had HA flare ups several times recently nit picking everything on myself including female health issues.
I'm kicking myself because I keep getting panicked about feeling light headed & disconnected & I feel like that just prolongs it staying around. When the head rush spinning sensation hit those couple of times I freaked. It makes me think the worst and think "this is never going away" but we all know anxiety is a liar. If the breathing thing can go away then this surely can to? Compared to a few months ago I've been doing better, proud to be working again as well, but still not myself yet & that makes me sad. I even feel strange at work most of the day, the few moments that I feel normal leave just as fast as they came. The worry has even been giving me extra tight chest breathing shortness sensation which has me kicking myself even more. Anyone relate and know how to handle this?
When my anxiety journey first began I was constantly feeling short of breath and dizzy, headaches, nausea, etc. At the beginning of the year I had so many tests including bloods, chest x ray, ct scan of the head, head/neck MRI, etc. I was so convinced I had something very wrong but nothing profound ever showed up. I joined this forum to share & relate & have received a lot of helpful advice and hopefully I have helped someone along the way as well.
I've found a new job after being unemployed for nearly half a year, which I'm happy about as that means being busy and distracted. Have been working for a little over a month now. My breathing sensation has nearly gone away completely, it'll come and go in spurts throughout the day and sometimes I'll go a whole day without breathing bothering me. That's a relief as it was my most distressing symptom.
However the light headed feeling remains pretty much throughout the day. There will be brief moments in the day when it's gone but not enough and I know I still fear this sensation a lot. Most of the time it's not a TRUE dizzyness where the room spins crazy though I've had it a couple of times (will explain in a bit.) It's more of a weird floaty disconnected feeling like everything is not quite right or real. It's called depersonalization I believe. However I have had actual rocking dizzyness. And even a couple of weeks ago I was at work and feeling stressed.
My hours had just gotten extended that week after some unforseen circumstances at my workplace and I was dealing with clients who were giving me a hard time. Suddenly I felt like the room was spinning hard felt a head rush and like I was going to faint. I managed to keep myself collected as I was with a client and I couldn't just run out screaming. So I kept working like nothing was happening. Most of it subsided after an hour or two but still felt very strange. Today when I was at the gym I was already feeling funny head sensations and the spinning came on, I was so scared and wanted to run out screaming again. Felt like I'd faint or fall but neither ever happens. I kept trying to go on as if nothing was happening but eventually left. Had myself a good cry feeling distressed. it mostly subsided after about two hours but now I'm scared and still feel the weird head sensations and disconnection. Ive been stressed and adjusting to my new job plus working extra hours and feeling pretty tired. And yet I keep thinking the worst case scenarios like something wrong in the brain, even though CT & MRI earlier this year showed nothing. For that matter I've had HA flare ups several times recently nit picking everything on myself including female health issues.
I'm kicking myself because I keep getting panicked about feeling light headed & disconnected & I feel like that just prolongs it staying around. When the head rush spinning sensation hit those couple of times I freaked. It makes me think the worst and think "this is never going away" but we all know anxiety is a liar. If the breathing thing can go away then this surely can to? Compared to a few months ago I've been doing better, proud to be working again as well, but still not myself yet & that makes me sad. I even feel strange at work most of the day, the few moments that I feel normal leave just as fast as they came. The worry has even been giving me extra tight chest breathing shortness sensation which has me kicking myself even more. Anyone relate and know how to handle this?