leebop
11-07-17, 09:14
Im trying to make sense of my brain. I ve had health anxiety ever since I was 8 when I was convinced I had AIDS. Im now 44 and its worse than ever. I just dont understand why. My main fear is melanoma. Why I dont know. Is it because its a cancer I can see with my eyes? Is it because I actually know about 6 people who have had it and its meant to be not common. Is it worse than ever because I have 2 young boys who I cant bare the thought of leaving behind. Is it because I was abused when young? Is it because apparently my grandmother had health anxiety? Oh and dont get me wrong, Im terrified of cancer all round. Im scared to have sex incase I bleed and its cervical cancer, every 2 years when I get a pap smear Im convinced this time will be a bad result. In the last 2 weeks Ive been to dr about spots on skin which she has said not a concern but now Im at the point even her word I cant believe for more than a day. I wonder if I have anxiety I dont know where to channel and choose something on my body to focus on. Ive doubled my meds and still feel so anxious. I forced myself to get a blood test 3 weeks ago as Ive only ever had 2 before when pregnant and though by finally doing that and getting a good result id feel better but results were perfect and I still feel the intense fear. Has anyone used a hypnotherapist? if its in your genes is this just the way Im going to be for the rest of my life? Does CBT take long to work?