.Poppy.
11-07-17, 17:20
I am going to be moving into a new apartment in less than a month. This is going to be my first time living alone, and it's also my first "real move" in that there's no real reason I will ever live at home again. I've been very excited, but all of this is now hitting me hard and I'm becoming increasingly afraid/unsettled. I'm also concerned that I'm going to "crash" when I get there and fall into another cycle of depression (based on my history this is very likely). I've been trying to set up an appointment with a therapist but have been hitting dead ends so far.
In addition to that I've been having what I think are panic attacks but I'm not sure, so I need to see about going to my doctor and asking him what he thinks. So I feel the rumblings of my HA starting to resurface.
Anyway, when I was apartment hunting I did so with the knowledge that I have a dog and a cat and would need to find pet friendly housing. It wasn't easy - I live in a college town, so things aren't super cheap and they are often in terrible shape. I finally found a place that was nice, reasonably priced, near work, and was ambiguous about pets -- I am for sure allowed to have a cat, and when I asked the landlord he said it was fine to have my dog as long as he wasn't a nuisance and that other tenants have had dogs there in the past.
Great news, right? Of course now I'm going postal that maybe he didn't mean it or he'll change his mind or something else awful will happen.
I talked with a friend and she suggested asking my psychiatrist about having my dog as an ESA - he wouldn't be a service dog, but he would be allowed to live with me (which is all I need). I don't mind paying pet rent - in fact I already have - I just want him there as I do rely heavily on him and his companionship.
I have my psych appointment next week - but I have no idea how to approach the subject and this too has me all over the place.
Sorry this got so long, I have a bad habit of being wordy. Does anyone have any advice for how to approach the conversation? Is this a good idea?
In addition to that I've been having what I think are panic attacks but I'm not sure, so I need to see about going to my doctor and asking him what he thinks. So I feel the rumblings of my HA starting to resurface.
Anyway, when I was apartment hunting I did so with the knowledge that I have a dog and a cat and would need to find pet friendly housing. It wasn't easy - I live in a college town, so things aren't super cheap and they are often in terrible shape. I finally found a place that was nice, reasonably priced, near work, and was ambiguous about pets -- I am for sure allowed to have a cat, and when I asked the landlord he said it was fine to have my dog as long as he wasn't a nuisance and that other tenants have had dogs there in the past.
Great news, right? Of course now I'm going postal that maybe he didn't mean it or he'll change his mind or something else awful will happen.
I talked with a friend and she suggested asking my psychiatrist about having my dog as an ESA - he wouldn't be a service dog, but he would be allowed to live with me (which is all I need). I don't mind paying pet rent - in fact I already have - I just want him there as I do rely heavily on him and his companionship.
I have my psych appointment next week - but I have no idea how to approach the subject and this too has me all over the place.
Sorry this got so long, I have a bad habit of being wordy. Does anyone have any advice for how to approach the conversation? Is this a good idea?