no-chill
13-07-17, 05:44
I've been told since age 10 that I need to 'watch out' for cancer. Whatever the hell is a 10 year old is supposed to do with that advice?
My father is one of 7 children. 3 have had cancer, and both of their parents died from it. So I need to watch out.
30 years into my chain smoking, bacon eating life, I found a lump in my breast. I figured I should probably get that looked at. Doctor Inappropriate Grabby said it was probably nothing, but it should be investigated further.
And that's when my logical brain turned into a dumpster fire.
Diarrhea is colon cancer (not stress induced IBS.)
Rough spot on gums is cancer (bit into something hot. Dentist literally laughed at me when I made her check. Twice.)
Face rash is cancer (it just happened to appear directly after waxing.)
And, of course, EVERY sensation in either breast is cancer (even though I just had a biopsy, and a mammogram, and a CBC.)
And I don't get the panic attacks that I've heard described. I get cold fear. I get the feeling you get when you almost fell down the stairs, or when a giant dog growls at you. The blood rushes out of my face, my throat tightens a bit, my heart palpitates a little. It's a jolt of adrenaline packed fear that lasts a few seconds at a time. And depending on the day, I get a few jolts, or a hundred.
So...... any advice? :scared15:
My father is one of 7 children. 3 have had cancer, and both of their parents died from it. So I need to watch out.
30 years into my chain smoking, bacon eating life, I found a lump in my breast. I figured I should probably get that looked at. Doctor Inappropriate Grabby said it was probably nothing, but it should be investigated further.
And that's when my logical brain turned into a dumpster fire.
Diarrhea is colon cancer (not stress induced IBS.)
Rough spot on gums is cancer (bit into something hot. Dentist literally laughed at me when I made her check. Twice.)
Face rash is cancer (it just happened to appear directly after waxing.)
And, of course, EVERY sensation in either breast is cancer (even though I just had a biopsy, and a mammogram, and a CBC.)
And I don't get the panic attacks that I've heard described. I get cold fear. I get the feeling you get when you almost fell down the stairs, or when a giant dog growls at you. The blood rushes out of my face, my throat tightens a bit, my heart palpitates a little. It's a jolt of adrenaline packed fear that lasts a few seconds at a time. And depending on the day, I get a few jolts, or a hundred.
So...... any advice? :scared15: