Haruka
15-07-17, 17:48
Hi everyone, so I'm having a rough time right now.
For an idea, about a year ago I lost my virginity to this guy who I thought was my friend. A month or so after he blocked me on snapchat and Instagram and that kinda broke my heart, I was hurt about it. All that fun stuff.
Anyways, last night he messaged me on Facebook wanting to hang out. I knew I shouldn't, but I did anyways, and of course we had sex. And I was all excited about it at first, but the moment it was done I felt SO guilty. Like I just felt awful. I felt sick to my stomach.
After that I went home, went to bed, then when I woke up 2 hours later I had the worse anxiety, the type that tickles my chest non stop and makes me feel so uncomfortable. Makes me nauseated too. I've been trying to go back to sleep for the past few hours, but I've only managed to dose off occasionally.
I don't know what to do. I want this anxiety to go away and to stop, but I don't know how and I'm so afraid it will never go away, even though I know that's not logical. Any advice or comforting words are so much appreciated.
For an idea, about a year ago I lost my virginity to this guy who I thought was my friend. A month or so after he blocked me on snapchat and Instagram and that kinda broke my heart, I was hurt about it. All that fun stuff.
Anyways, last night he messaged me on Facebook wanting to hang out. I knew I shouldn't, but I did anyways, and of course we had sex. And I was all excited about it at first, but the moment it was done I felt SO guilty. Like I just felt awful. I felt sick to my stomach.
After that I went home, went to bed, then when I woke up 2 hours later I had the worse anxiety, the type that tickles my chest non stop and makes me feel so uncomfortable. Makes me nauseated too. I've been trying to go back to sleep for the past few hours, but I've only managed to dose off occasionally.
I don't know what to do. I want this anxiety to go away and to stop, but I don't know how and I'm so afraid it will never go away, even though I know that's not logical. Any advice or comforting words are so much appreciated.