BigBoss95
15-07-17, 18:52
Hello folks, I was diagnosed with Anxiety and depression in 2014 after having a really bad panic attack that had me hospitalised. I have never quite been the same since.
In the past few years I have learned to cope with many of the "physical" symptoms of anxiety and depression; Hypersensitivity, heart palpitations, mania, hypnic jerks, adrenaline rushes, rapid heartbeat, chest discomfort, hot and cold sweats, numbness etc. but the worst thing of all is Air Hunger. I left my Job in 2015 due to how bad it had gotten and to this day it's just as debilitating as ever.
It feels as though my chest is being sat on and my throat has swelled shut, my lungs don't seem to fill up properly and I am left gasping for air making myself dizzy and sweaty. It can last anywhere between a few hours and a few days and there is nothing I can do about it, my own body is suffocating me. It used to freak me out and make me extremely anxious but now a few years down the line I am fed up with it and it just infuriates me.
Does anyone else here suffer from this? and if so what have you done about it? what remedies, medication, therapy have you taken to help with it?
I am starting College next month and I honestly don't know how I am going to cope.
I actually miss the days when I was a miserable anxious wreck, at least I could somewhat function in day to day life without the constant worry that at any moment one of the many symptoms of A&D could surface and take over.
How could that one panic attack 3 years ago **** my head up so badly that I now have to spend the rest of my life being tortured by my own mind and body? does it get any better, or am I just going to have to accept that this is what my life is now and get used to it.
I haven't thought about any suicidal thoughts in a long time, but I am honestly just so exhausted with dealing with this shit all the ****ing time.
Everyday is an ordeal and I just want it to stop.
In the past few years I have learned to cope with many of the "physical" symptoms of anxiety and depression; Hypersensitivity, heart palpitations, mania, hypnic jerks, adrenaline rushes, rapid heartbeat, chest discomfort, hot and cold sweats, numbness etc. but the worst thing of all is Air Hunger. I left my Job in 2015 due to how bad it had gotten and to this day it's just as debilitating as ever.
It feels as though my chest is being sat on and my throat has swelled shut, my lungs don't seem to fill up properly and I am left gasping for air making myself dizzy and sweaty. It can last anywhere between a few hours and a few days and there is nothing I can do about it, my own body is suffocating me. It used to freak me out and make me extremely anxious but now a few years down the line I am fed up with it and it just infuriates me.
Does anyone else here suffer from this? and if so what have you done about it? what remedies, medication, therapy have you taken to help with it?
I am starting College next month and I honestly don't know how I am going to cope.
I actually miss the days when I was a miserable anxious wreck, at least I could somewhat function in day to day life without the constant worry that at any moment one of the many symptoms of A&D could surface and take over.
How could that one panic attack 3 years ago **** my head up so badly that I now have to spend the rest of my life being tortured by my own mind and body? does it get any better, or am I just going to have to accept that this is what my life is now and get used to it.
I haven't thought about any suicidal thoughts in a long time, but I am honestly just so exhausted with dealing with this shit all the ****ing time.
Everyday is an ordeal and I just want it to stop.