StellaNova
19-07-17, 05:43
Hello. Just a short BG on me. Female 28, diagnosed with panic disorder about 3-4 years ago after 8minths of chest and esophagus pain, TONS of tests before they ever diagnosed me with anxiety for some reason.. had lost 20lbs I couldn't afford to loose.
Long story short is I crawled out of that hole after about a year. At that time my anxiety appeared my long term boyfriend moved a few hours away (now husband.) well my anxiety subsided once things settled down and I knew he was coming back in a year, we have been married 2 years now and he had to go out of town for an extended period of time (month and a half) he is still gone a few more weeks.
Once he left I felt I was doing good until we got a cancer diagnosis of my father in law. This triggered me into a anxietyrelapse with my good friends racing thoughts, loss of appetite, shortness of breath, chest pain, chest heaviness, Ibs... anyway once again my anxiety has come back when I am alone.
A few people have suggested it sounds like separation anxiety. We have a healthy relationship and not worried of anything typical just more so of loosing him forever. I work an 8-5 but we spend every afternoon together so not sure if the drastic schedule change of being alone did it.
My symptoms last all day on and off and only thing that seems to help is taking my klinozopam. I also have been on 75mg sertraline since they diagnosed me and really wanted off then BOOM. Back...
The last week or so I have felt mostly normal mentally, no more racing thoughts, but my body seems to be stuck in this fight or flight mode. Does anyone have advice? I'm in therapy again, 3rd apt tomorrow, and started yoga but dangggg anxiety is no joke.
I fear loosing my true love one day to death and tragedy and struggle enjoying things without him when he's gone because he's my best friend, he's my heart.. we've been together now most of our short young adult life, 7 years.. anyway not sure my question just venting ready to feel like myself again:wacko:
---------- Post added at 23:43 ---------- Previous post was at 22:44 ----------
Or would relationship anxiety be a better term. We have a open trustworthy relationship not sure why I am like this
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Long story short is I crawled out of that hole after about a year. At that time my anxiety appeared my long term boyfriend moved a few hours away (now husband.) well my anxiety subsided once things settled down and I knew he was coming back in a year, we have been married 2 years now and he had to go out of town for an extended period of time (month and a half) he is still gone a few more weeks.
Once he left I felt I was doing good until we got a cancer diagnosis of my father in law. This triggered me into a anxietyrelapse with my good friends racing thoughts, loss of appetite, shortness of breath, chest pain, chest heaviness, Ibs... anyway once again my anxiety has come back when I am alone.
A few people have suggested it sounds like separation anxiety. We have a healthy relationship and not worried of anything typical just more so of loosing him forever. I work an 8-5 but we spend every afternoon together so not sure if the drastic schedule change of being alone did it.
My symptoms last all day on and off and only thing that seems to help is taking my klinozopam. I also have been on 75mg sertraline since they diagnosed me and really wanted off then BOOM. Back...
The last week or so I have felt mostly normal mentally, no more racing thoughts, but my body seems to be stuck in this fight or flight mode. Does anyone have advice? I'm in therapy again, 3rd apt tomorrow, and started yoga but dangggg anxiety is no joke.
I fear loosing my true love one day to death and tragedy and struggle enjoying things without him when he's gone because he's my best friend, he's my heart.. we've been together now most of our short young adult life, 7 years.. anyway not sure my question just venting ready to feel like myself again:wacko:
---------- Post added at 23:43 ---------- Previous post was at 22:44 ----------
Or would relationship anxiety be a better term. We have a open trustworthy relationship not sure why I am like this
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