Sollace
19-07-17, 22:48
Hello everybody, I've tried to stay off the site for the past week or so and just forget about worrying about ALS. It reached a point where for a few days I was simply avoiding looking at my left index finger at all, and today when I couldn't resist looking it all got so much worse.
Basically, 3 weeks ago I noticed twitching in my left index finger- making it twitch inwards to my middle finger. That started my worrying, however I do realise now that twitching is not an early symptom of ALS. What worries me now is that comparing my left and right index fingers- my left index finger is definitely skinnier where the twitching was occurring- between the knuckle and finger joint on the side it was twitching towards. Furthermore, if I move my index finger side to side I can feel an almost popping feeling in the lower muscle. If I think back quite a long time, I believe I can recall thinking it was skinnier quite some time ago- but the memory isn't vivid enough to be certain.
I've been consistently conscious of the dexterity of my left hand, and have been able to do everything you need to do in normal life just fine, but am terrified of what might develop.
I honestly just want to go the doctors at this point- but I know it would be stupid to go in and tell them about twitches in a finger (that stopped weeks ago), and how that finger looks skinnier compared to my right index finger.
I know at the age of 19 it is incredibly unlikely that I have anything like this. Indeed, I realise that the increased saliva production I've consciously been noticing these past few days is due to reading about it being a symptom- but I am still at a loss with myself, because my left index finger is definitely skinnier than my right.
EDIT: I Just thought I'd mention that since writing this post my left index finger twitched again- the first time in 3 weeks. Furthermore, it feels sore, so I'm probably going to make an appointment tomorrow to see the doctor- even though I have no idea what I'm going to say.
Basically, 3 weeks ago I noticed twitching in my left index finger- making it twitch inwards to my middle finger. That started my worrying, however I do realise now that twitching is not an early symptom of ALS. What worries me now is that comparing my left and right index fingers- my left index finger is definitely skinnier where the twitching was occurring- between the knuckle and finger joint on the side it was twitching towards. Furthermore, if I move my index finger side to side I can feel an almost popping feeling in the lower muscle. If I think back quite a long time, I believe I can recall thinking it was skinnier quite some time ago- but the memory isn't vivid enough to be certain.
I've been consistently conscious of the dexterity of my left hand, and have been able to do everything you need to do in normal life just fine, but am terrified of what might develop.
I honestly just want to go the doctors at this point- but I know it would be stupid to go in and tell them about twitches in a finger (that stopped weeks ago), and how that finger looks skinnier compared to my right index finger.
I know at the age of 19 it is incredibly unlikely that I have anything like this. Indeed, I realise that the increased saliva production I've consciously been noticing these past few days is due to reading about it being a symptom- but I am still at a loss with myself, because my left index finger is definitely skinnier than my right.
EDIT: I Just thought I'd mention that since writing this post my left index finger twitched again- the first time in 3 weeks. Furthermore, it feels sore, so I'm probably going to make an appointment tomorrow to see the doctor- even though I have no idea what I'm going to say.