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SeagullTerror
26-07-17, 02:44
NAME: Keyon
Date of post: 6:41PST 7/25/2017
Age: 16
Residence: United States

Story:
Recently, ive been having a lot of health struggles for about almost 2 months. It started out with me lying in bed, in the beginning of June, I remember lying there and feeling a lump in my throat, like I could swallow. I rushed to the ER, they said it was my uvula and that it was swollen (it really wasn't) and sent me off with some medicine. I went to the ER 3 days after that, and they tested me and also claimed it was my "swollen uvula". But, they also did a chest and throat x-ray, a swab of my throat, and some blood work, all came back fine. I then attended summer school, and had frequent panic attacks or "high anxiety" ever since. Then, I had went to a clinic (Early July) and they also said the same thing, they prescribed me claritin (didn't solve swallowing issue as I had no swollen uvula.) Later, (around the 10th of July) I got sick, I came down with green/yellow mucus, which lasted only 3 days. After a little while after the green mucus had stopped, I noticed I had a sore throat and my neck swelled up, my lymph nodes became palpable. Now, this is when I started to google my symptoms, from this day forward my "high anxiety" came with crying. A little after this, (last week) I went to an ENT specialist who felt my nodes and thought nothing of them, he thought they were no problem at all and told me how a sore throat can drain to sides of the neck, he also looked down my throat with a tube and found nothing of concern, as well as feeling my neck, he said he wants to see me back in 6 weeks and that it was all in my head. I felt relieved for about a day.. until I started searching again.... Now, fast forward a couple days, to Sunday (2 days before the intial post of this post), I noticed that my arms were aching and my legs were tingling (without pins and needles), and weak, and it also felt like they were on fire, along with this my hip was "the source" ( or aching most) of the aching. My arms still ache and it feels like the shoulders are the "source" of the aching. Along with this, I get little muscle twitches and ticks all over my body, usually they're concentrated in my legs and arms (the twitching is.) as well as my joints popping. Along with all this, it feels like im falling sometimes or that my head goes light, along with a feeling of nervousness in my chest (hard to explain. I also got constipated and hit with diarrhea, with a bit of swelling (not visible, but I can feel it). My throat is still sore and it still feels one side of my nose is stuffed and that there's mucus in my chest/throat (although its not green/yellow, its white or foamy, but definitely thick). My eyes also feel a little strained sometimes, everyone says these symptoms come from anxiety (minus the whole lymph node and sore throat thing), but im so fearful of having lymphoma, lukemia, thyroid cancer, or any form of cancer!! I fear that all these symptoms are really not anxiety, and that im dying or something, I just want reassurance that this will all end and i'll get my life back, but that feels so..afar.. I thank you reader that you've gotten this far. Please respond, and God bless you.

P.S: My groin kinda hurts (private parts (im male so take a guess what does)), my parents are convinced its anxiety, and refuse to take me to any more doctors.
I also lost my appetite and can feel my stomach growling or having that "hungry feeling" even after I eat. My muscles get like this even when im not hyperventilating, I trained myself to do that less.

Becazican
26-07-17, 03:09
You will be okay but maybe you should find a yoga meditation class or at least maybe some anti anxiety drugs

sdoxo
26-07-17, 03:26
I think you just have a bad case of anxiety. All of your symptoms point to that, and you have also been reassured by multiple doctors. If you had any of the things you fear, your bloods would not have came back normal.

Maybe you should look into some meds or CBT.

jdheart
26-07-17, 04:31
Just by reading your post I can feel your anxiety. Your brain is creating an illusion that something is wrong. Fear is an illusion.

What are you afraid of? Cancer.

Anxiety is your Cancer. Cure the anxiety and the cancer will go away.

Maybe visit your local cancer center for people your age talk to them. So you think that will make you feel better or worse?

SeagullTerror
26-07-17, 18:36
Quite honestly, I don't know how that would make me feel, If they had the same symptoms as me prior to diagnosis. I'd be terrified, otherwise, I think I may be a little relieved.

Thanks to everyone else for responding, I feel a lil' better now.

anxious123
24-05-18, 07:26
i have very similar symptoms to you, palpable lymph nodes in my neck and being ears, i had glandular fever last year and i believe the node jnever went down although it was only that i started checking them again that i fear they have gone and come back from a disease such as the c word you talk about. i have had tingling and aches throughout my body and it’s driving me mad! i have had normal blood results but my anxiety is getting worse and worse