Mattheiu
30-07-17, 05:44
Hi, I'm new here and to the world of anxiety in a way. I've only recently really been diagnosed with Panic Disorder and despite really trying to understand it it doesn't seem to be really getting any better. My troubles seemed to have started with the passing of my mother in January of 2016, I was at home with her and my father when he came running to me yelling that something was wrong with her and that she was asking for help. I got there and started trying to administer CPR but she wasn't responding, breathing, nothing at all. Instead of what I would have thought was a normal response I seemed to shut down completely, no tears or anything. It wasn't that I didn't care I just didn't know how to express it.
Since that day rain storms have filled me with terror, it seems to slowly be getting better but my anxiety seems to just be latching onto everything else now. I was diagnosed with H. Pylori a little over a month ago now and though I've gone through the therapy for it, I seem to have developed IBS and Gerd. I'm taking Gas-X liberally as well as Prilosec OTC and swigs of Gaviscon to deal with the symptoms while I wait for a Gastroenterology Specialist to see me. Anxiety wise however my life's in shambles; I haven't been able to sit down and focus on writing anything anymore which used to be my safe haven, I've become hypersensitive to my body sensations to the point where my heartbeat sends me into a panic attack.
I'm trying to put my life back together but for some reason it's hard to tell myself it's just panic so you're okay. Prior to these experiences I feel like I've lived a charmed life, I don't think I was ever sick or anything before and now It's all I can think about is that I'm dying every time I sneeze... My first therapy session is in two days and I've been told by a psychologist that he can't help me, I'm thinking about asking my PCP to refer me to another one but I don't know. I'm scared to be a bother to anyone and people/social settings freak me out really bad too. On top of all that, I just got back from urgent care today because my lymph nodes in my neck are swollen and sore, hoping that it's going to be okay. The doctor told me it was because of post nasal drip and that I have water on the ear, he prescribed me with prednisone and singulaire.
Any advice anyone can give me on conquering health related anxiety would really be heaven sent, I took the medicines and took a nap but woke up feeling queasy, ended up having a panic attack even though I knew I was just feeling sick because I'm sick and that the medicines aren't causing bad effects... Anyway, I know I talked a lot but I wanted to say hello and leave a bit of what's going on with me here so you know me a bit. Let me know if you're curious about anything I might have overpassed in my mess of text.
Since that day rain storms have filled me with terror, it seems to slowly be getting better but my anxiety seems to just be latching onto everything else now. I was diagnosed with H. Pylori a little over a month ago now and though I've gone through the therapy for it, I seem to have developed IBS and Gerd. I'm taking Gas-X liberally as well as Prilosec OTC and swigs of Gaviscon to deal with the symptoms while I wait for a Gastroenterology Specialist to see me. Anxiety wise however my life's in shambles; I haven't been able to sit down and focus on writing anything anymore which used to be my safe haven, I've become hypersensitive to my body sensations to the point where my heartbeat sends me into a panic attack.
I'm trying to put my life back together but for some reason it's hard to tell myself it's just panic so you're okay. Prior to these experiences I feel like I've lived a charmed life, I don't think I was ever sick or anything before and now It's all I can think about is that I'm dying every time I sneeze... My first therapy session is in two days and I've been told by a psychologist that he can't help me, I'm thinking about asking my PCP to refer me to another one but I don't know. I'm scared to be a bother to anyone and people/social settings freak me out really bad too. On top of all that, I just got back from urgent care today because my lymph nodes in my neck are swollen and sore, hoping that it's going to be okay. The doctor told me it was because of post nasal drip and that I have water on the ear, he prescribed me with prednisone and singulaire.
Any advice anyone can give me on conquering health related anxiety would really be heaven sent, I took the medicines and took a nap but woke up feeling queasy, ended up having a panic attack even though I knew I was just feeling sick because I'm sick and that the medicines aren't causing bad effects... Anyway, I know I talked a lot but I wanted to say hello and leave a bit of what's going on with me here so you know me a bit. Let me know if you're curious about anything I might have overpassed in my mess of text.