maianixon
01-08-17, 20:11
I feel pretty dumb writing this but my HA has been worse the past week again(as is probably from me posting a lot again,im sorry).
So today I found a hard lumb on the inner side of my gumbs just a bit lower down from the tooth. It's of a size of a small pea and not painful, but very hard and the colour is same as the rest of my gums. I can clearly see it and feel it. It is very hard so I don't think it could be one of those spots that you get on the inside of your mouth whatever they're called. I'm gonna call to book a dentist appointment tomorrow but it right away made me thing the worst. I am semi keeping the panic under control just because I am literally 22, non smoker (I used to smoke occasionally in the past) and my lymph nodes aren't swollen any more than usually so realistically I am telling myself there's probably very low chances it could be cancer right? Nevertheless I feel very anxious about it, it's like I never get a break. I just don't know what else this lump could be??
Literally the only thing comforting me is that atm I have 3 completely separate health worries lol so I am thinking worst case scenario only one of them would come true. And before anyone says I need to work on my anxiety Im fully aware of it and that I'm being very irrational and I've really been trying my best (going to CBT and taking medication and trying to distract myself and working on acceptance) but HA still very often gets the best of me.
So today I found a hard lumb on the inner side of my gumbs just a bit lower down from the tooth. It's of a size of a small pea and not painful, but very hard and the colour is same as the rest of my gums. I can clearly see it and feel it. It is very hard so I don't think it could be one of those spots that you get on the inside of your mouth whatever they're called. I'm gonna call to book a dentist appointment tomorrow but it right away made me thing the worst. I am semi keeping the panic under control just because I am literally 22, non smoker (I used to smoke occasionally in the past) and my lymph nodes aren't swollen any more than usually so realistically I am telling myself there's probably very low chances it could be cancer right? Nevertheless I feel very anxious about it, it's like I never get a break. I just don't know what else this lump could be??
Literally the only thing comforting me is that atm I have 3 completely separate health worries lol so I am thinking worst case scenario only one of them would come true. And before anyone says I need to work on my anxiety Im fully aware of it and that I'm being very irrational and I've really been trying my best (going to CBT and taking medication and trying to distract myself and working on acceptance) but HA still very often gets the best of me.