Mell1988
11-11-04, 16:18
Hi guys,
Just needed to vent again so apologies for the blurb that follows.
Feel so strange this past few days but couldn't work out what it is - until I realised that I was supposed to have a counselling session last week. I couldn't make it with work and my counsellor is away this week so I have put it back till next week.
Wondering if it's that that has thrown me - as although I enjoyed my sessions and knew they were doing me good - I never really appreciated how much I rely on them (I've only been doing them for a few months).
Anyway, basically I think just because I've missed that monthly "chat" (for the want of a better word) and the chance to express my feelings and thoughts, that it's caused my anxiety to return.
I hope it is just that because hopefully when I go back next week I'll be feeling better. At least I know now always to keep to my appointments.
Just feel so desperate, feel like the ground has been taken away from me again -all the old anxieties are returning, worries about my son and everytime I read a sad story or something in the paper I feel the tears in my eyes.
I was walking around Tesco the other night and there was a little kid having a temper tantrum as he wanted something and he was crying away to his mam and dad saying "I want this toy" and he looked so sad that I could have honestly wept right there and then (in the freezer aisle!). I have a 3 year old myself and I know what toddler tantrums are but for some reason it really got to me and I hate seeing him upset, even though I didn't know him !
What's going on with my hormones at the minute ?
Argh! I hate this, I wish it would end. Must be light at the end of the tunnel - please ??!!
Just needed to vent again so apologies for the blurb that follows.
Feel so strange this past few days but couldn't work out what it is - until I realised that I was supposed to have a counselling session last week. I couldn't make it with work and my counsellor is away this week so I have put it back till next week.
Wondering if it's that that has thrown me - as although I enjoyed my sessions and knew they were doing me good - I never really appreciated how much I rely on them (I've only been doing them for a few months).
Anyway, basically I think just because I've missed that monthly "chat" (for the want of a better word) and the chance to express my feelings and thoughts, that it's caused my anxiety to return.
I hope it is just that because hopefully when I go back next week I'll be feeling better. At least I know now always to keep to my appointments.
Just feel so desperate, feel like the ground has been taken away from me again -all the old anxieties are returning, worries about my son and everytime I read a sad story or something in the paper I feel the tears in my eyes.
I was walking around Tesco the other night and there was a little kid having a temper tantrum as he wanted something and he was crying away to his mam and dad saying "I want this toy" and he looked so sad that I could have honestly wept right there and then (in the freezer aisle!). I have a 3 year old myself and I know what toddler tantrums are but for some reason it really got to me and I hate seeing him upset, even though I didn't know him !
What's going on with my hormones at the minute ?
Argh! I hate this, I wish it would end. Must be light at the end of the tunnel - please ??!!