Giraffe
29-05-07, 09:49
Hi Guys,
I guess my title sums it up for a lot of us really?
Thought I would write a post and get some stuff out of my system, am still a little new at this so bear with me!
Think I have suffered with anx/pure o ocd since my teens but have only understood it in the last 4 years or so (am now 31). I am pleased to say I can have long periods of time where I feel well but lately the anxiety and intrusive thoughts are back with avengence causing sleeplessness, distrubed appetite and generally feeling rubbish.
I know its a vicious circle and I should accept the anxiety and try to replace my negative thoughts with positive ones but its easy to type that and not so easy to put into practice me thinks - especially when you are doubting every thought and feeling.
Does anyone else worry that they are going mad? This is the worst bit for me. Last night I couldnt sleep and I saw something crawling on the wall - now of course immediately I decided I had lost it and was seeing things, once I investigated however, it was in fact a small spider, going about his night time activities. I almost laughed out loud with relief, except this relief doesnt last long and I am back to thinking, Oh this is it, I must be cracking up, when is this anxiety going to go, etc etc... :mad:
My intrusive thoughts are usually centred around me being a mad or bad person, when in reality I like to think I am sensible (probably too sensible) and kind. Still doesnt stop me believing I am on the brink of turning into a mad, homicidal, child abusing, maniac though.
Hey ho, feel a bit better for typing it all out and ought to go and get on with some work I think!
This site is great, thanks to everyone who reads this and takes time to respond...
Wishing you all love and luck,
Giraffe
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I guess my title sums it up for a lot of us really?
Thought I would write a post and get some stuff out of my system, am still a little new at this so bear with me!
Think I have suffered with anx/pure o ocd since my teens but have only understood it in the last 4 years or so (am now 31). I am pleased to say I can have long periods of time where I feel well but lately the anxiety and intrusive thoughts are back with avengence causing sleeplessness, distrubed appetite and generally feeling rubbish.
I know its a vicious circle and I should accept the anxiety and try to replace my negative thoughts with positive ones but its easy to type that and not so easy to put into practice me thinks - especially when you are doubting every thought and feeling.
Does anyone else worry that they are going mad? This is the worst bit for me. Last night I couldnt sleep and I saw something crawling on the wall - now of course immediately I decided I had lost it and was seeing things, once I investigated however, it was in fact a small spider, going about his night time activities. I almost laughed out loud with relief, except this relief doesnt last long and I am back to thinking, Oh this is it, I must be cracking up, when is this anxiety going to go, etc etc... :mad:
My intrusive thoughts are usually centred around me being a mad or bad person, when in reality I like to think I am sensible (probably too sensible) and kind. Still doesnt stop me believing I am on the brink of turning into a mad, homicidal, child abusing, maniac though.
Hey ho, feel a bit better for typing it all out and ought to go and get on with some work I think!
This site is great, thanks to everyone who reads this and takes time to respond...
Wishing you all love and luck,
Giraffe
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